Recent reads: Compendium- Catechism of the Catholic church

Recent reads: Compendium - Catechism of the Catholic church, compiled by our Pope Benedict XVI.

Being slacking around..so its time to fill up my knowledge bank!
Compendium is a concise, yet comprehensive compilation of a body of knowledge. (Good thing that the book has BIG fonts! )

Catechism is a summary or exposition of doctrine, traditionally used in Christian religious teaching from New Testament times to the present. Catechisms are doctrinal manuals often in the form of questions followed by answers to be memorized, a format that has been used in non-religious or secular contexts as well.

In short, it is an educational system on Christianity, in this context. =)

The part i liked inside is...The Lord's prayer. It is the only prayer which unities all Christians, because it is the only prayer, taught by Jesus. The book explains every single sentence in this prayer.

Gonna read up more!

Amen.

Feelings never last...Love do.

Had an interesting conversation with Father Bruno today before RCIA session...

At the end of the whole conversation...everything seems so vague, and yet so clear...

Religion is such an....unclear topic. There's no direction, there's no clear indication of whether signs are really from God..There's no right or wrong...

What fasinates me and what's clear is...everything i've research upon...is all about Love.

Everything ends up with the Love of God.. and His love can be related to Couple relationships as well..

How does couple get to know each other? Through Communication.

How do we get to know God? Through Prayers.

Does feelings between couples last? No, and it fades away, can be deceiving as well...

The same goes for religion as well. Some people have "initial feelings" for God...its like a novelty...and when feelings fade away, when praying turn from a way of communication to God, into a chore, they leave God. Same like feelings between couples.

Feelings fade away ultimately, Feelings can be temporary, and most of the time, it is.

It is Love, which revives the feelings for each other. And it is also Love which sustains the relationship between a couple or between us and God, when there are no feelings..The understanding, the communication, the 感情 which is built up overtime, which keeps the flame burning alive. The knowing that we have to be there for each other...

Keeping the love for God alive, we read up the Bible, research on the history of Christianity, commit to God's works, these keeps the Love for God alive. And prayers is a means of connecting to God..a way of communication. a way to build up the 感情 for Him.

I've asked him about Miracles as well...why are the saints in the past able to perform miracles such as, the Saint of Miracles, St Anthony. He performed his first miracle when he was a little child, who is able to gather huge flocks of birds away from the field, and into the church, to prevent them from eating up all the seeds..when he grew up, he performed many other miracles such as, healing the man who amputated his leg (i think he really attached it back!), doing justice by bringing the dead to life for a short moment to testify for his dad who he was wrongly accused as a murderer, etc.

The life of St Anthony was amazing...and he was witnessed while praying, that brilliant rays shone from his room..and he was seen with sweet infant Jesus with him clinging onto him.. Those were the miracles back then..

Perhaps, my expectation of miracles is too high. After chatting with Father Bruno, i realised that Our miracles of these times, perhaps, is to be alive to see so many wonderful things in the world throughout the centuries through ages, being able to withstand the social stress and pressures, being able to live in a safe place like Singapore with our family...being able to see and enjoy the beautiful sunrise and sunset each morning and evening...

My heart should be filled with thanksgivings, praise, for the miracles in our daily life..

"May my unfailing prayer to St Anthony for intercession to sweet infant Jesus be granted. The answer to my prayer may require a miracle, even so, you are the Saint of Miracles. Whisper my petition into the ears of the Sweet infant Jesus, who loved to be folded in your armsl and the gratitude of my heart will ever be yours."

God's will be done.

Amen.

Shuddup!!!

I'm learning to shuddup...~ Shut up..i mean...

A more appropriate meaning will be..to be alert.

Being very conscious recently, not to "let it out" too quickly...my frustrations, my opinions, Very mindful...

A friend of mine recently shot me down in an email, with several others in the CC.

I felt injustice actually, because he didn't specify what is to be done, what is not to be done..

He did NOT say its just ME who can make certain donations....and i have sms to prove it..

Maybe its also my fault for assuming things as well...for not asking EVERYTHING specifically. but its just so embarassing to CC all to shot me down!!!..not just that, he is actually a friend i can consider quite close...so its hurtful that he's so insensitive..

Wanted to email back to show him what he smsed me...but anyway, forget it..

I want happiness more than wanting to be right..

After talking to Valerie the other day...i realised how inconsistent i am with my words...

I often used to ask people.."You want to have happiness, or you want to be right?"...

After examining myself all these while, i realised all along, i have always wanted to be RIGHT, rather than choosing happiness. My actions speaks...when i ridicule someone, when i laugh at someone's mistakes, when i choose to fight back for my so-called "justice"..and i never end up happier than before...

Sometimes, Silence is really golden...

God's will be done.

Amen.

Date with Valerie!~*

Yesterday, i had a date with Val, a fellow RCIA faciliatator in church...

Although she's only 19 years old, but i think...she's been gone through alot in life...and the words that comes out of her mouth speaks of wisdom (no rubbish at all!)..an extraordinary young lady..
Recently, maybe i'm just too bored and having nothing to do, i went "out-of-course" with life...She did her best to align me back..and amazingly..the homework she told me to do, worked!

The day before our meeting, she wrote to me in an email:

"At this moment of despair, pour out your heart to the Lord, give every fibre of your body to Him and cry out to Him. He will heal you and comfort you by helping you to discover more about yourself (your hurts, your talents, your weaknesses) and in His Time, He will help you to discern, to know of His Will for you. If He is calling you, be sure that He will make the Signs BIG and CLEAR.


HW: Pray with the bible, followed by a decade of Rosary."

As i prayed the Rosary, sorrow that was built up inside began to pour out...and within a few mins, a strong sense of protection began to envelope my heart...and the sense of despair went away...


I kind of like...wanted to squeeze all the tears out, but i couldn't, as there was no more hurt at that moment.. it was amazing...

We met up, and chat for a few hours outside MacDonalds at Civic centre.

Having trouble getting over my last guy, we talked through about relationships, hurts in life, family, knowing ourselves...

And, she gave me some homework to practise on...

1. Write 10 positive and 10 negatives about ourselves.

10 positives:

1. I am nice and pretty (quite surface...)
2. I am generous, when i have the money to treat friends..
3. I am a straight-forward, frank person.
4. I love children!!! I am good at handling them too!
5. I am good with uncles and aunties ( they love me like their child! Most of them. I act cute..ahhaahaAH~*)
6. I can easily cheer people up when i want to!
7. I can hang out with guys and not get bored easily. I'm easy-going actually.
8. I am quite patient.
9. I am quite tolerant and accepting person also.
10. I am forgiving. (After getting such a horrendous boyfriend, and still being able to forgive him, i think i'm REALLY a forgiving person..ahaAHaha~~*)

10 Negatives (Some are extremes of my positives..):

1. I am cut people with my words sometimes...especially to people closest to me..i will intentionally pick their weak spot and keep poking at it...to make them realise what's PAIN..(that's usually when they hurt me...i DO retaliate..)
2. I am insensitive with handling egos..especially Men's...
3. I am a TOO straight-forward sometimes...too blunt..
4. I have a LOUD voice..(maybe i'll turn into a naggy LOUD mama next time..haha~~)
5. I am persistent...meaning VERY STUBBORN person..
6. I "show face" when i'm in a really terrible mood...I can be a mood killer sometimes...
7. I am too reckless with decisions sometimes..anything also CHOP CHOP FAST FAST finish and move on...
8. I am poor with managing finances and organisation. Quite messy sometimes.. I am not good with tidying up stuffs.
9. I am not a "particular" person..not capable of scrutinizing details...don't have a good eye for details...
10. I treat friends better than family (changing now...i'm more family-oriented these days..)

2. Understand what is the kind of guy that we want for our lives.
SomeOne who can complement my weakness... I can add strength to his weaknesses...
Being in a relationship in Love, is actually different from being in a relationship in Marriage.

There's much much more to consider when the impending BIG "M" comes...
In marriage... conflicts are inevitable, there are bound to be differences, and its is these differences that we are here to complement each other. THERE's still much more to understand about Marriage...Matrimony..

I remembered that in my previous blog on the down-to-earth guy that i wanted..i mentioned the following list. From my weaknesses.. i'll need to add in points 11 onwards..

1. Have passion for life.
2. Be there to adore and care for me. Be there whenever i need him. Really love me for who i am.
3. Friendly guy to know, so my close friend can generally accept.
4. Willing to change for the better. Not stubborn. Good EQ.
5. Be investment savvy. Knows how to manage finance.
6. A determined guy. Once he sets to start something, he will not give up and pursues to the end.
7. Healthy guy without much bad habits.( I can tolerate drinking, but not smoking and clubbing.) (I give in to this..)
8. Loves to hear me talk, appreciates whatever i do for him.
9. Understands his priorities in life, values and beliefs.
10. Have faith and hope for life.
11. One who has an eye for details...can help me have look out for flaws, able to inspect, scrutinize.
12. One who is a rational person, keep me in check from making rash decisions.
13. One who is family-oriented (maybe being filial son will do.)
14. One who can accept my weakness at poking egos, being stubborn, not willing to listen...and be patient with me for that until i change for the better..
15. One who is willing to accept that we can grow together, willing to keep each other updated about our growth so that we will not drift apart...willing to spend time to know each other more, even when we are at our ripe old age...

"Before knowing about God, we must understand ourselves..."There's so much to understand from this sentence...

One answer for sure is....When we know oursleves..and when the time is ripe, God will prepare us for the special someone to come...in His Time..

That is why i have to do this homework.. (There's this amazing feeling that God sent her to speak to me...seriously!! No joke! You know when u believe...)

Right now, after talking to Valerie, i just wanna focus on praying for Anthony to lead a truly happy life (not gonna find out how's he been now, not gonna let whatever he do affect me now), and i know he'll only truly be happy DEEP DOWN HIS HEART if he's able to reconcile with God, and for me to find my True Love. + currently exploring Praying for others, my love ones, also will help me to expand my heart, my horizon, for more important things in life as well...

God's will be done. Amen.

Something to think and pray about this week..

Long-term commitment whether in marriage, religious life or in other forms, is harder these days because of change. The loved one changes, and we change ourselves with time; so our relationships change. We cannot live our whole lives at concert pitch.

But when the tune changes, it need not be the end of the concert. It often is. In some countries half the marriages end in divorce. What is there in us that can survive the changes of time, and the up-and-down of living relationships?

As we look back at a jubilee, we see our commitment is at once richer and more painful than when we started. Faithfulness is a bit of a mystery and a marvel; it has a value in itself.

Faithful love builds up the one to whom we are faithful, expresses our hope in them. It is a grace, a gift: not so much what we do for God as what he does for us. It would make us feel humble, that in spite of all our inadequacies, we stuck it.

Adopted from http://sacredspace.ie/

In a Dating Mood!~*

Am in a dating mood now!

Oh, maybe its just to recover from my out-of-love feeling..

But the prospect of finally wanting to meet my true love is actually...enticing..after a long day of thinking...it feels blissful to be able to love again.

Been praying alot lately...for my True Love to be revealed, like Victoria did!

Qns: Is the Lord gonna reveal it like Victoria's?

hmm...

Oh...i used to like Wu Zun kinda man... very gentlemenly, looks good (all the dream guys are good looking wah, that's why we call it a DREAM guy)!

But i dunno...he doesn't appeal to me anymore...

He's got the..."dunno what he wants in life" kinda look..

Its just me lah... to think that way..

When i was with Anthony, i used to refer him to Luo Zhi Xiang aka Xiao Zhu, type of guy.. because he's hardworking..always wants to get his job done to his best... so at the back of my mind...they looked similar...

He TOTALLY reminds me of Anthony...mischevious..funny man.. has his own little sad life also... etc.

And we both love the show, 《转角*遇到爱》 . That's why ...hmm.. "Xiao Zhu" symbol should be gone for now..

Recently i just watched 《我叫金三顺》！A Korean show, featuring Hyun Bin 玄彬 as the male lead. Maybe i relate myself as the female lead...so i like him! haha~~

He looks not too bad too! hunky, manly, responsible kinda guy.. abit childish sometimes, filial, and very devoted as well. And i LOVE the part where he always sweeps the heart of the female lead away. I mean, she's can be quite a fierce woman when she gets angry, demands her ways...but he takes the CAKE! ahhaAHAh~ All in the show only lah...

If my true love falls short of these expections of a handsome guy, its ok actually, but he must be of good character of course.. and very devoted as well. Hopefully a Catholic too!

A person with religious faith can be so enduring, charming! It eludes some sort of.. confidence~ very charming actually.

This posting, is sort of, to divert my attention away from SHOPPING..and also...to work hard..start looking out for the Hyun Bin in my life...

I'm in a dating mood now...anyone to recommend? ;)

O Lord,

Please bless me with my true love....please let me see in...at least in my dreams tonight..so i'll be able to discern who he is when he comes along..

Amen.

God bless him...

I was told that he's got 2 ladies in his company who are interested in him now...

He never seems to be able to escape this "fatal attraction" of ladies towards him..This stupid "AH Bui" uncle, "Emo Kid"!..

Hope God will bless him to make the right decision, and follow the guidance of the Holy Spirit..

Heard that he's been on a buying spree as well...and i know how that feels, lately, when i am also going through this....

Just this week, I bought a crucifix keychain, a nail strengthener, an eyebrow kit, Catholic Digest, tonic hair-darkening shampoo and conditioner for dad, supplements for dad and mum, $180 worth of clothes... Its like...buying things is starting to become a focus, a daily goal in my life.

Its a feeling of emptiness at times, and we just want to find a focus in our lives... to live by..

So, everytime after gym at Amore, i'll walk all the way back from Woodlands civic centre, to the church, pray for a while, and walk back home... the journey seems like i'm walking with God, my soulmate...and it never fails to make me feel calm and safe...

Hope that Jesus will walk with him as well. Teach him and guide him... let him never lost hope in life...

May the Scared Heart of Jesus sanctify him, protect him and may the Immaculate Heart of Mary intercede thy prayers to our Lord...

Amen.

Life...

去爱吧 像不曾受过一次伤一样
跳舞吧 像没有人欣赏一样
唱歌吧 像没有任何人聆听一样
干活吧 像不需要钱一样
生活吧 像今天是末日一样

Love - like you have never been hurt
Dance - like no one has ever appreciated
Sing - like no one has ever listened
Work - as if money not compulsory for a living
Live - as if Today is the last day of our lives


I really miss him...
Hope God is always with him, protecting him, sanctifying him.

Amen.

BOREDOM

I'm so bored...bored to the point of depression!! :..(

Went to Optimax to visit Pin, meet her for lunch today...

She did eye test for me too! My Left's degree of 100 and Right's 75. Yipee!! It went down from L150 and R100. haha~ And i realised it too. :=)

Also, while scanning my eyes, she noticed some deep stress lines..i've been relaxing all these while, so where did it come from?

Perhaps i'm paranoid.. after she told me...i began to sense the depression..from having NOTHING to DO!! And keep on shoppin' and shoppin' everyday!!! oh man.... :(

I need to do SOMETHING!!!...

I've just received the offer of appointment from MOE today. Told me to go for a briefing on...8 April '09!!

That's like 3 more weeks of BOREDOM!!!! I'm so DAMN BORED!! :..(

Gonna do something, MUST! i'll find something in church to do, or draft out some teaching materials from experience..or do some charity...

Bored bored BORED!!!

God please help me...get me into a secondary school that i fit into.. (hope its Westspring sec..)

In Jesus Christ most precious name,

Amen.

Sunset lovers...~

Qn: What do Andrew and Daisy, Gerade and Suzanna, Jeffrey and Carol, Thomas and Jenny, Peter and Christine, Ronnie and Loretta (Neil's parents), My dad and my mum have in common?

Ans: They are sunset lovers...(maybe their love is in the sunrise stage! Who knows? *haha* ) Minus my parents, they are all Catholic-Christians. hehe~*

I got to know Andrew Daisy, Gerade Suzanna, Jeffrey Carol and Thomas Jenny while doing Alpha course in St Anthony Church. They are amazing people..every session, all the couples will be there. And Aunt Daisy once told me that, since young till old, Uncle Andrew will tell her "I love you" everyday without fail! =) And he's still doing it everyday... That is so sweet~

In our generation these times, most people don't believe in true love, and alot of friends around me have been lamenting on hard times, hard to find the right guy/lady of the life, hard to maintain relationships, scared of getting hurt, etc. ALMOST 98% are influenced by ALL the negatives of the World....WHY FOCUS on the Bad side? WHY NOT focus on the positives??

Getting ditched 4times by 3 guys, u know what? I haven't give up on my quest for a Good lasting Love relationship! Because, i'm seriously NOt afraid to fall. And each fall toughens me up. God's graces. I pick myself up and move on to my quest.. ;)

One thing for a fact is...

All these Old couples DIDN't MISS OUT the pains in relationship!!!

There are bound to be pains, hurts, compromises, along the journey of partnership..and these also strengthens the committments for each other, giving joy, peace, hope and Love along the journey..

Its like...learning to ride a bicycle. If you really want to learn it, be able to ride a bike properly, you must not be afraid of falling and hurting yourself. Once you fall, learn to get up, and get up fast and learn from the lesson! Ride the bike until you have truly LEARNT it and Ride on it properly! If you've never fallen YET, you will, someday.

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Recently, i was thinking, Life is really REALLY SERIOUSLY DAMN F***KING SHORT!!

5 years down the road, 30 years old. If all goes well (GOD BLESS!!!), this is the plan...

Age:

28 - Should be able to have met the love of my life

30 - A new life: which may be stage 2. Get married, have your own apartment, family planning, allocate time between career, friends and family

31 - A newborn at home....before and aftermaths of pregnacy, allocate time between child, husband, friends and family, and our Faith (that's what will keep us growing together!)

32 to 35 - Stage 3: Caring for the toddler, education for them, and maintain our youthful looks and not going downslope... Career to be steadily climbing for my man.. Leisure and Recreation not to be forgotten..MUST have couple times, private times as well... Our faith will still be growing too!

35 to 45 - Stage 4: Kids to be moving towards teenage years. More MORAL education for them, so as not to follow the ways of the IMmoral world of today's times... teach them not to always believe TV ads and news, learn how to discern certain issues of the World... Still, i'm gonna have fun with friends and hubby! Maybe we can visit the kids during CCA, and rekindle sec school life! haaHA~*

45 to 55 - Stage 5: Watch the kids grow up, TAKE CARE OF OUR HEALTH! hehe~ parents get to slack abit and have private times with each other. Not forgetting to maintain "Friendship" with the kids, nurturing them.. plan our retirement with fellow old OLD friends (seriously, we cant be retiring with our children ard..haha~)

55 to 60 - Stage 6: CPF is out for us (might be, by then)! Maybe we can have a 20 yr plan on how to spend the money for retirement...travelling..slacking...fishing... go to church together and commit to the works of God..and it seems to be back to what we've always been doing for the first 20 years of life..Like a virtuous cycle. =) He must say "I love you" everyday as well.. :)

80 > - Stage 7: Hopefully, we are able to discern when our time will be up (God's graces, we pray forth), and let's live and leave together (no more than 1 month apart from each other)...to Heaven with God.

Well, this seems like a good draft for me. A sunset couple-wannabee! Looks like a hectic schedule too..

Am i been too hopeful or what? What if it doesn't work out the way i want it to be?

I hate dumb people who asks me stupid questions. Its just simple. I believe in True Love, and EVERYTHING that comes along with it, the pains, the joys, peace, hope and love. Do you believe?

Whether it works, I'll always pray for God's direction and guidance..

Amen! ;)

Prayers...

Hmm..its 4.04am in the morning, and i can't get to sleep after watching 《我叫金三顺!》@ tudou.com. That website is the BEst ah! so speedy.. literally no loading time needed! No more Youtube.com. ahaa~ :)

Alot went through my mind recently...and just wanna blog it down, in case i forget in future..

Life's, actually quite short. Really short. In 5 years time, i'll be 30 yrs old. Like the female lead in the show, called 三顺. She's slightly on the Big side..i think over 65 kg at least, minimum 1.7m...30 years old..and got ditched right from the beginning of the show. And then, blar blar blar...story goes on...

What's worth mentioning abt her? hmm...i guess, its abt Timing.

At 30yrs old, getting ditched can be quite..pathetic..
"Market Value" is declining with every birthday celebration..being on the plus-side doesn't do her any better, but she's quite charismatic in her ways after all. She have dreams, to be the best baker in Korea. Having a goal, a vision in life, to look forward to, this is so mezmerising...

Having met the true love of her life @ 30years old is also..quite..hmmm....(shalt think of that now..) But anyway, whilst the story might be fictional, alot of people in reality do only get to meet their true love at a later stage of life. Perhaps the first 20-30years are experiences to better prepare us for holy matrimony...

If time is not ripe, things will never turn out fine..(whatever this statement means..its meaning may change in future, as i read up more and change my perspectives..)

Anyway, what i wished for my 25th birthday, and all my prayers for my Novena sessions, are all the same.. Wishes are like prayers for me now..and it'll all stay the same, until the miracles happen.
- That he will attend RCIA and go back to Christ..for God to lead him in his life and be blessed with the Gift of Wisdom and Discernment.
- That all my friends and their families will quit smoking and lead a healthy lifestyle.
- That my family will be healthy (especially my parents) and wealthy, financially and spiritually.
- That the Lord will reveal my true love, lead me to him, and may we learn from the ways of Jesus' life, grow old together in the Lord's guidance..

And sometimes, when i'm not forgetful, i will add on this..."May the Lord bless all my friends who are single and available, to find the true love of their life and guide them spiritually in their relationship journey.." heeeEEE~* :)

Also, lately, alot of miracles has been working in our church group also..really amazing..
As lots of stuffs shan't be discussed outside the group, i'll have to keep them anonymous.
A lady was having a bad time at work ever since the recession started, having to do what she didn't like to do (Sales! i don't really like it too!), and she really wanted to quit her job! BUT during this recession times, JOB PRESERVATION is the word.

For a long period of time, she prayed over it and there was no improvement for a long time..things were really going way out of hand and there was nearly a depression stage she had never experienced in her life.. She decided that it was too much for her. Finally, she told God, that it was too heavy a burden for her, and prayed for God to lift that burden away. As Christians, we know that, the Lord will not give us a burden we cannot handle. We prayed for her too..and recently, there was a reply from a company where she posted her resume to. To cut the story short, Out of 120 resumes, only 60-70 were screen through by the HR, and only 5 made it through the second interview, and she was the only one selected for a senior executive position! And her pay will be $1000 more than her previous job!

Alot of us in the same group also experience similiar things about our career as well. My friend recently got a pay rise which is at least double his income now, another was offered a higher pay from another company to hop over, and also having bonuses bigger than last year's is an EXTREMELY RARE case for this year's poor economy...and we all are experiencing and sharing our happy cases with each other only recently~ God's graces. =) We all will get caught up with bad times at some part of our lifes, and having no one really fitting to turn to, we turn to God (who will always be there for us, no matter what happens. As long as we believe).

Prayers keeps us sane, distracts us from the unnecessary worldly things in life, and allows us to focus...
When there are pains and sadness, i pray for love and time to heal from God, to stay sane and distract myself, to not do silly things anymore..
When there are obstacles and turbulences in life, i pray for safety and guidances from the Holy Spirit..and not do dangerous things that jeopardizes my life and reputation...and many more.

I think prayers really did, make me change abit. ABIT at least.
- I did my best to keep my mouth shut and stop making a nuisance with my mouthful of sarcastic words..and imgine how hurt others will have gotten..
- I start to think twice before doing anything reckless ( i am a VERY reckless person)
- I start to think twice about hurting the people i love (still not very good with that...I did hurt him deeply with my sharp words..)
- I get to be more patient now, whenever things don't work out the way i want it to be. I pray...and slowly, things will work out in one way or another. (e.g. I will get DAMN impatient when the mrt gets too long to arrive OR waiting for some friends for an hour or 2..and i'll pray, and think, what's the worst that can happen? LATE lor.And i'll just happily carry on with what i do..and anger just difusses away and the most amazing thing is, the rest of the day will always seem smooth-going~ ;D )
- I start to have a very good soulmate, whom i believe in, and whatever i share with him, confide with him, a sense of comfort will overwhelm me and make me feel safe. Thank you Lord, may i never lose you again.

Amen

AMORE!! What a discovery...~

Wow... 3 days i spent in the gym... i felt my lungs alive again!

And suffering from muscle-aches now..the thighs especially...The classes can be really killers for beginners!!!

Really getting old and FAT! Oh man!

Went to this morning's session, a free 1 hr counsultation with the gym instructor. I realised that although my Body Mass Index(BMI) is on a healthy scale, my Skeletal Muscle Mass (SMM) is damn low!! Too less lean muscle..and my fat is too much!! I'm classified as obese!!

Overall, i need to build 5.8kg of muscles, and lose 6.8 kg of fats!!!

Diet per day cannot be more than 1500calories..
Here's a breakdown of a sample 1500cal diet plan...
Breakfast: 1 cup high fiber cereal + 1 cup soya milk + 1 fruit (about 280cal)
Lunch: Sandwich with 85grams Skinless Chicken or Turkey Breast or Tuna on 2 Slices of High Fiber Bread + 2 Cups of Salad Greens with Seasoned Vinegar + 1 Fruit (about 445cal)
Snack: 2 fruit (about 200cal)
Dinner: 170grams of Skinless Chicken Breast, Turkey Breast, or Fish; + 1 Cup of Brown Rice, Whole Wheat Pasta, or Starchy Vegetable; + 2 Cups of Steamed Vegetables; + Salad with seasoned vinegar; + 1 fruit (about 435cal)

Total: That's about 1360cal only.

Let's just forget about the above....and i'll just take Chlorella + Fiber... + miso soup and tofu..sounds more simple.. :P

DAMN all those suppers in the past...~
How to reach 50kg like that?...within another 8 days? I might as well give myself until the end of the month... :( must build the muscles healthily..

Regarding the lessons there, the classes are fun! And besides the yoga and pilates (My favourites!), there's also their signature BellyBlitz (Aerobics + Belly dancing,which requires Hipscarves with shimmery bling blings!) , CardioLatino (Aerobics + Samba, Rumba, Cha cha, Paso Doble and Jive elements)! So interesting...

And they've got their Kickboxing (very popular), PowerYoga (which is high-heat, high-energy workout), even Hip hop, Jazz, and MTV dances!!

No carbohydrates for me this month...i do my best to avoid...hahaa~~

Confessions of a Shopaholic!!!

Oh My... I think i seriously need help...to abstain from shopping!!!

Over the last 2 weeks, i bought:
1) wallet ($26.10)
2) clutch bag ($17.10)
3) nice black hand bag ($23)
4) skipping rope ($10.80)
5) Gisele Bundchen sandal ($36)
6) black high heels ($25 + $15.80 for sole support stickers)
7) spa package with Subtle sense ..3 year installement ($36.60 per month), which adds up to nearly $105 per month!!!
8) Amore fitness 4 year session package... 2 year installement ($176.67 per month!!)

I'm so bad...and i'm intending to get a harddisk for my collapsing laptop this coming IT show at Suntec, more clothes when sch work starts,.... :..(
I have never shopped like this before!!! And i'm not working currently now..that's the problem.. :.. (
MOE reply please come faster...get me occupied with work....

*Sorry to Carine and April, i'll get my finance settled asap..

Must do self-reflection... God help me...

Need to lose some weight...~

Ok...public declaration this time..

1) to motivate me, and

2) have pple ridicule me when i don't reach my goal..hahaa~

Promised myself, and also my ex before, that i will lose some weight!!!

(I still like to mention my dear ant alot..although i'm just one of his many ex girlfriends..haaha~ but he's a good man overall (minus the egoistic personality, the "He's greater than alot of pple" kinda mentality, the "I've gone through alot in life" perspective) ahahaaHaha~* )

He mentioned that i'm really getting abit too much fat (all thanks to their night suppers..and my inability to resist good food..haha~) He is also another "Ah-Bui". :P

5kg off by end of 20 March!

So i can go for my quarter century makeover shots..and fit into my clothes and jeans...they are not fitting now.. :(

Battle plan:

1) Amore fitness!

I have been wanting to join Cynthia long time ago, but found it too expensive...but i decided that i needed something to keep me busy, and not lazy too...

2) Skipping ropes!

Target to skip 1000 times per day....!!! 11 days to go!!

Skipping can tone up arms and mid section of your body, but not recommended for those with weak knees..

I bought it for $10.90!!! damn...i can be quite a big spender...

End result: Wanna tone up flabby arms and thunder thighs (damn, i'm shameless! hahaaa~~), have some abs definition...hahha~~ And i wanna weigh 50kg at max.

Jiayou!!! :P

Ladies ways of the World! :P YippEe~*

Woohoo!!

Got myself an ozozo wallet and an ozozo clutchbag! All under $50 total! ;)
So happy.. And look what's written on the clutch bag..."Looking Good is the Best Revenge"! ahaAHahaA~~* That silly ant is gonna regret it one day, hope he's regretting everyday. >:P (hahaa~ not bare grudges lah...mentioned for fun..)

Although they're not the pricey Louis Vuitton and Coach bags, but they're just niffy and nice, and its a sec school, high sch girl's dream to own them, back then, in my time. hahaA~

Comtemplated quite a long while before getting it, cos they have crystals on it...hate it when it falls off. Nonetheless, the sales lady told me that they have services to repair. So, its comforting afterall.

Next on my list....a bigger bag! To go to school with, able to contain my 1 litre water bottle and A4 size documents. Having Tangs voucher! Gonna go scouting @ Tangs soon! ;)

The ways of the World..or the Ways of God.

Colossians 2:8 [Warning against False Teachers]

See to it that no one captivate you with an empty, seductive philosophy according to human tradition, according to the elemental powers of the world and not accroding to Christ.

Colossians 2:20 [Practices Contrary to Faith]

If you have died with Christ to the elemental powers of the world, why do you submit to regulations as if you were still living in the world?..

It is easy to be misguided by the so-called "teachers", seduced by any of the examples given:

1. Pre-marital sex (your friends had sex before, so you follow them, your friends smoke, ALL OF THEM SMOKE, and you give in to temptation,

2. Divorce (Divorce rate very high...those stupid media always reporting about it..Nothing good but most of the time bad...Must you believe marriage is a dead trap?? NEVER get married??!!)

3. Masturbation (friends do it, so it NORMAL to do it? Well i never know it until friends told me...i dunno about guys lah.. >:P)

4. Extra-marital affairs (so dramatic and sensationalised by drama serials...~ mindless man and woman..not being faithful...not knowing how to handle problems together...)

5. Unnecessary indulgences, trapped in the money-oriented world,climbing the ranks of the coperate World, Fame, etc...

These are simply, The ways of the World.

*That's why i hate the media...the way they sensationalised things, makes people FOCUS on the wrong things..more sex, more violence, it is NO DOUBT pple move towards these ways of the World...why aren't there more advertisements and serials on moral educations?

It is emphasized, in the 2 passages above, to not give in to the ways of the world.

Learn to discern, with not just your minds, but your heart as well, Who is the Right teacher for you?

These can be exemplifed by the concrete signs of Love.

Someone in a concrete place, having experienced alot in life (that satisfies my heart). If my heart does not find the soulmate, then, temptations will find their way into my heart instead.

Once we have the Centre, everything else falls in place.

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So, what is the ways of God?

It is easy to say JESUS, but do you KNOW Jesus?

If we want to know more about Jesus, we must understand ourselves first.....

Mark 10: 17-22 [The Rich Young Man]

17 As he (Jesus) was setting out on a journey, a man ran up, knelt down before him, and asked him, "Good teacher, what must i do to inherit eternal life?"

18 Jesus answered him, "Why do you call me good? No one is good but God alone.

19 You know the commandments: ' You shall not kill; you shall not commit adultery; you shall not bear false witness; you shall not defraud; honour your father and mother.'"

20 He replied and said to him,"Teacher, all of these I have observed from my youth."

21 Jesus, looking at him, loved him and said to him, "You are lacking in one thing. Go, sell what you have, and give to the poor and you will have treasure in heaven: then come, follow me."

22 At that statement, his face fell, and he went away sad, for he has many possessions.

The words "Follow me" signifies giving up, letting go, of the Worldly things in life, and follow your teacher. I am not saying that you desert all your possessions, and become a nun or priest. I am just saying that, you can have it, and when you don't have it, its alright, and you don't have to run after it.

This is like my life philosophy, which i've been mentioning...

"Happiness and Contentment consists not of great wealth, but few needs."

And i've found a true, good teacher, someone who i can trust on and who will never perish.(Alrighty!! I love that! And it is blind faith that i have...since billions have believed in him over 2000 centuries..)

And the ways he taught, is of Love.

He's like a soulmate to me now, and everything else falls in place..

No matter what happens, may i never lose my God, ever again.

Amen.

I'm dry...but i wanna write so much things!.....

Ran out of ideas what to write lately...
ALot of things actually..just..finding the right words to put it out in writing..

Learnt from my guy previously..he's a very sensitive person, so i learnt NOT to say things i don't mean to...sometimes i get really get so hard on words, ON purpose, just to let the other person understand how i felt.

I've always taught people about empathy, but i can get so unkind with words too...

Anyway, will write in tomorrow afternoon, hopefully..Will be in church then! :)

I wanna write abt..God, about Love, about Life slacking and waiting for my vocation to came for me..wanna get an combinational mircowave, conventional, grill oven, get a new wallet that fits me, a nice bag that is easy to carry and use AS A teacher, get a driving license as well! So much things!! ... Life's great and hopeful. =)

God bless.
Amen.