Bukit Panjang Govt. High and Teck Whye Combined Military Band

Due to the delayed broadcasting of Vision Part II, i now present you (Courtesy of Carine!~~* Love ya~!) with my all-time favourite band,

BT BAND

Central Judging of Display Bands Yr 2000

The volume is not too good here. The volume for the next video on Yr 2002 is much better. ;)

I always wanted all my close friends (whether sec sch, jc, uni or wbg friends) to see BT Band and the BT BAND spirit!!! This is like a dream come true!!!

This is when i was in Sec 4. Although my favourite is still Band Comp '98(the old video tape is collecting dust on top of my desk), this is also an unforgetable year where i learnt lots of leadership skills, getting pissed-off most of the time, and having my AAC aka "Anti-Annie Club" with Kumar being the Club President ( ahaHAaha~~* and i still love you friend~* ;P)

1st formation: Hmm... i think it was 4 zeros. haha~* forgot liao.

2nd formation: Tulip!!

3rd formation: Orchid~~* Jumping, supposed to be color changing one (We kept our secret weapons to be used during the finals, haaha)~!! Spent the most time practicising that~*

4th formation: Lotus. Oldies feel~

5th formation: Hmm...we always called it the Olympics rings. Looks like sunflower with Big round petals.

6th formation: S21. To symbolise Singapore 21st century.

We even participated in the National Day Parade 2001 when i was in JC1(this is where i earned my 120 hours of CIP!!). Have you ever imagined, 60,000 people looking at you, and you are not alone. 140 strong team is with you. When the mace rises (the stick which the drum major holds), all goes silent. An immense feel of honour and glory streamming fast in our blood, we were all excited to present the best that we have.

And the mace drops. Drummers rolls their drums and we march off!! Within 8 mins, which feels like split seconds, all's finished! 7months of practice ends within a few mins. Hardwork, everyday during the weekends and holidays, we spent hours (7am to 6pm) under the hot sun, drizzling light rains, windy comfy weathers, All was well paid-off with the comradeship, loyal friendships natured.

Central Judging of Display Band Yr 2002

1st Formation: 6 rows with the Axillary (A) Team as flag team in between.

2nd Formation: Clam~ haha~~*i love it very much~

3rd Formation: Seashell by the seashore. had a hard time catching the tempo and RUNNING!!

4th Formation: Jelly fish!!

5th Formation: A normal fish swimming from left to right~ haha~reminds me of curry fish 6th head~

6th Formation: An angel fish swimming from right to left~

7th Formation: Starfish!! A blue one~ hahAHA~~*

8th Formation: Stingray~

9th Formation: Pisces~ In short, its 2 fish. haha~~*

This is the year where I came back as an ex member to help out with the BT Band. Although for this to competition, we spent more time in BP (Bukit Panjang Govt. High) fields to practice, I still love the old Teck Whye field~, where you are able to see squirrels on trees, lots of trees at the back of the field and behind the canels there’s the train which goes all the way to Malaysia. I used to go for Band practices early in the morning, daily for all holidays during sec sch years. Our Kakis(Very close friends) are all leaders, so we had the chance to OWN the band room keys and spent almost 24 hours daily!!! That was my sec sch moments, ALL in BT BAND room, the field, the bball court.

I used to arrive as early as 6~6.30am, together with my best pal Qing, we sat outside the Band room and Fabian will arrive with the Keys( That was yr’98). I used to stand outside the Band room, watching the sun rising from the east and thinking “How can I paint it out?” Damn!! I think I’m dumb enough for those years not thinking of the image-capturing device called “The Camera”. Anyway, it was all Awesome~ This old Teck Whye field is now occupied by BP! Because BP is undergoing renovation, they will occupy Teck Whye for 2 years!!! ;P

Now, after exams, i should be able to visit BP (when time permits) and help out with Band Comp 2008!! DAmn, i want that "Best Display Band" award and its all fated!! That we are gonna win the Best Band Award working on the old Teck Whye field!!

This coming Band Competition, we're back with a vengence~~*

Vision

ST Life Section (Monday, April 23, 2007)

"Green Lady"

At the age of 11, American actress Daryl Hannah met a calf that would change her life.
Then living in Chicago, her family would drive her to Wisconsin on weekends, with regular stops at a diner off the highway. She always asked to stay in the car, and once, when her parents agreed, she made the acquaintance of a truck-full of calves.

"For a full hour, this one calf was licking me and kissing me, it was so adorable. So when the truck driver came back, I said: "Excuse me, sir, what is this calf's name?"
It was not the answer she expected: "Veal. Tomorrow morning at 7."

"I snapped. I suddenly did not have the capacity to disassociate what i was eating from the creature that it had been...It was so visceral (instinctive)", she told Life!.

She may be famous for her roles in Splash and Kill Bill, but actress Daryl Hannah's great passion in life is environmental activism. She has also ever since, became a vegetarian.

What Vision do you have?
Last night, i was @ Kl/Cyn's place completing our project on Iridology, and WL and WeiJie were there as well. We watched the final episode of 白色巨塔The Hospital. I only managed to catch the last 3 epi of the whole show, but that's ok. And this last episode touched me, in the sense that, i saw what life i wanted! What life i wanted with my love as well!~* Now i understand what he meant by the "乡下" type of guy for me, and i think i really like that guy! But only partially.. if there's a balance between this 乡下 guy and 城市男孩, wow that'll be great! haha~

Details explained on my next blog. No time to write it all out now, but it simply represents what kind of Vision i want to fulfill..

Recent article on the papers got me focused on environmental issues. That caught my focus. There's this saying in PoV, that "when you feel in distress, it is actually signifying that someone out there is in greater distress and it is up to you to help that person". Sometimes, people gets so engulf,overwhelmed by your own problems or issues, LOOK OUTSIDE AND BEYOND YOUSELF!! Sometimes when you are in pain or trouble, helping the person in greater need may actually help/heal you in the process....

I've been trying to read the papers (Still trying to, and i did read this mornings papers). I switch on the TV to watch the morning CNA, and there are so many reports and article on the environmental issues. I was thinking, "If each and everyone of us, living in a community, are able to chip in however small helps to this society, How great will that effect be in helping the World?" However, people are living in stress (esp. Singaporeans, developed nations) We are sOooOOoOoOo into our own problems, degressing into our own problems, and living in our problems. If we are able to help another become happier, aren't we happier as well? (Prehaps a show of how important each individual can be? Altrusim? whatever explaination you wanna give, the result should be more Love and Happiness to the World.)

If the young South Korean man in the Virginia Tech is able to look beyond his own problems, will the tragedy not have happened? I understand he has his own traumas... if only he went to PoV....

Tracing back to the core dynamics of problems, its HAPPINESS and LOVE that people are insufficient of. One of the impactful ideas i learnt from PoV is "We are in charge of our own lives, and we attract whatever we want (whether consciously or subconsciously) into our Lives." This is so true. Unless you went to PoV, you will never understand why things such as "Why do i get this bad guy as my bf when i've always wanted a Prince Charming in shining armour? Why do i have a failed marriage? Why am i so poor when i've been working so hard for my career" etc.

Everyone wants happiness, easily said. But do everyone think that they deserve happiness, subconsciouly? Unless they think that they are worthy to love, and be loved in return, they wouldn't be able to have true happiness. Your life story and PoV tells it all....

Coming up next, Vision Part II. Stay tuned.

What i look for in a guy...Part II

I spent the day studying @ Woodlands lib, preparing for exams next week with KL and WL. Woke up @ 9am and rushed off to lib to book seats (Now lib tables are up for grabs!!! A lot of pple chionging for exams) Surprised to see WL! Because she didn’t want to go lib with me, until KL dragged her along!! hahaAH~* That’s the power of KL’s charisma ~~* hahaHA~* So next time I know how to press WL’s hot button.

KL had a friend who joined us to study, and when he’s off to search for books, we started rattling off abt guys and that KL ah! Dunno what he talking about… “He’s a nice guy right? Good for you right? Loyal type leh! Also very responsible! Like 乡下type of guy, Just for u!!”
Followed by WL, she said,” No, Annie doesn’t like 乡下guys! She likes 城市男孩!”

I was so bewildered! Why are they assuming the type of guys I like? My other longtime girlfriends like Carine, MeiQing, Cihui and April they wouldn't say i like 乡下type of guys!!! They only know that i like bad-boy kinda guys!! My 1st 2 bfs were bad boys...
Then, suddenly, when I tot I could reply them, nothing came out of my mouth. I am no longer sure what kind of guys I like anymore!!!

When I looked back @ the previous blog posting abt “What I look for in a guy…” All seems pretty. But I can’t feel for it anymore… damn…it’s the dead zone shit again… and getting more serious…

Remember, I mentioned before that
Complaining = arrogance, powerlessness and lack of control.
So now I’m gonna trash it all OUT here!!

Complaining session starts!!!
I dun like guys who can’t make up their minds, not decisive, too easily bullied, those who bully girls, timid, stubborn like me.(投射)

I've got this tough wall that if any guys can break, You're the MAN!!! I can become so defensive when any guys want to get close to me, that i'll just scare him off. How? You wanna try? haha~~*

I know I am super stubborn. And I am so stubborn, even in the subconscious state, I don’t know that I’m doing things in the opposite way that they’ve been telling me to do. Sometimes when i'm assigned a task to do, I did it my own way, even when told to follow their way. I did it unknowingly!! (Maybe i practice selective hearing, seeing and listening and i dun even know it!!)

I am very self-assured of things I’m confident to handle (or I thought I can handle). I live in my whole world and unless I break out of my world, no one can force me to listen to what I dun wanna hear or do. I am VERY VERY STUBBORN.

I know I am super ignorant of people’s feelings as well. I can’t empathize with people, can’t respond to people’s call for help, and can’t listen to people’s sorrows. I am so dead. I dunno how to live again. I can sometimes forget how to make a person’s day happy (or do I just simply ignore them?). I can’t be bothered anymore about people outside my world. I forget to live out my life lively sometimes. And this sucks.

I used to care a lot for the people ard me, but they didn’t care. I got sicken and heck care abt life. So why should I care when pple dun? Until I met WL. One thing I like and hate abt Lin is, she’s shows so much care abt pple, that sometimes I’m wondering “How can she ever do that so openly and affectionately?? TMD er xin ah!! (hey no offense leh gal)” Because people may never appreciate what you are doing, and you are still doing it!!!! But, that’s also what’s sweet and nice abt her also. She’s doing things that normal pple dun normally do, but people should love each other more so that love will come back to them, right? Spread more love dear, and especially love yourself more. ;)

Is there anyone who cares abt me? I dunno. Perhaps this is the most vulnerable stage I am in now, so if there’s any guys who wanna venture into my dead zone and pick me up, there’s full of land mines which tripled the amount over the past 1 week. You may get killed. However, if u managed to save me, I’m yours.
(REMINDER: Survival rate is low. Wanna try? Think twice, if not, thrice.)

I’m feeling rather in between this dependent and independent zone. I got back to listen to songs like 冬季恋歌, which used to make me cry a lot in the past(4 years ago). Now, there’s no more tears. I can’t feel anything for guys liao, not even my latest crush (yes, I’m kinda gonna over him, hopefully. Ahhaha~*). I just wanna complain and complain abt guys and how hopeless I am with love and I just wanna scold and scream at any guys who asks me about “Which type of guy do you like? This guy good…that guy good…”

NooOOoOOOOoOo!~!~* I’m not a les!! I’m just, feeling that, its just so hard for the right person to come by. Perhaps, if added on to the previous 20 conditions about “What I want in a guy”, there’s a new condition:

21.
This guy must be someone who can make me cry for him.

Tears of Happiness, of course! First time for the past 23years of my life, I feel so empty. I’ve always have an ideal guy in my mind, but now, its just sickening. Perhaps, I’m going through “The Process”.

FREEDOM in 13 DAYS

Ben & Jerry's Free Cone Day!!~*~*

What a day! I lost my matriculation card and concession card. I went over to SMU to study for my labour law exam notes and glad that i've been studious. Can pass le!! haha~~* Feeling depressed about my lost, but luckily, there's the Ben & Jerry's Free Cone Day!! The "infiltration contingent", which consist of MJ, WeiLin, Tammy and Annie，were there to attack the ice-creams!!

Here's how the plans went:-

Time: 5:58pm. MJ, WeiLin, Tammy and Annie went over to Ben & Jerry's store at Suntec Tower 4, and discovered it was half-closed! What happened? Actually, the queue is beside "Secret Receipe".

Time: 6:02pm. The infiltration team started to queue up with the long queue. Damn it looks so long!! But the movement was unexpectedly fast. haAHA~* We are reaching our target soon...

Time: 6:03pm. Chocolate chip Cookie Dough spotted by WeiLin!! A perfect spot to take picture with our "Trophies"!!!

Time: 6:04pm. Invasion of the Charity army!!! We surrendered our fortunes to "Charity for brain-injured Children" and we were let off to continue our journey to our Ice-cream conquest!!! Time: 6:10pm. Staff Sergeant Wei Lin and Annie. *~ Slack abit ah~*
Time: 6:11pm. Senior Staff Sergeant Ming Jian and Tammy. *~ HAhaHA don't let Wilson know ah~~* Time: 6.15pm. We spotted target board!! MJ aims for Strawberry Cheesecake, WeiLin for Chocolate Fudge Brownie, Tammy for Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough, and Annie for Sweet Cream & Cookies.

Time: 6:20pm. Victory!!!! We have achieved our goal!! However, I failed my mission to get my Sweet Cream & Cookies. I got the same as Tammy, so MJ being greedy for another round of the very delightful strawberry cheese, we set off together for a second round!! ahaHaH~~* Its free!!! (typical Singaporeans) Time: 6.22pm. This is my trophy!!! failed mission 1st round.Time: 6.33pm. Wow!!! This is MJ vs. Annie!! He's so tan after 1 whole day at East Coast Park on sunday!! He's a burned man!! hahaHa~*
Time: 6.38pm. This is mine!!!!!! Sweet Cream & Cookies!! The Strawberry cheese were all gone! So MJ got the same as mine. hahaaAH~* Of course we shared the victories. hahaAH~*

Wow, what a day. Quite tired, but enjoyed the ice-cream. Must work out, go for a morning run at the stadium tmr before heading to the lib to study!! Must jia you!!! Counting down to FREEDOM in 17 days!!

Bluey monday~~

'Complaining is a combination of arrogance and powerlessness, while believing that someone else needs to change for you.'….Dr Chuck Spezzano [quoted from www.psychologyofvision.com]

Why did i put up this quote? Because i'm gonna complain lah!!! Although from this, i know that i do believe someone must change, it is for their own good!!! Everyone must be responsible for their lives. "How you do anything, is how you do everything".

Today, i'm very mad...so sOoOOo mad that i dunno why i'm crying non-stop. I've never cried so badly, ever since my last break-up with my second bf 5 years ago.. (the 3rd guy isn't worth it, so i din cry much) and guess what??!! The incident is so silly and you wouldn't believe it!!!

Actually, today i jio one guy to study at the lib. He was late for 2 hours. That alone, nvm leh~ But then ah(sounding *cina*), at the same time, i was feeling depressed over losing "pieces of paper worth up to $10K at least" which i am in-charge of safe-keeping and thought that i have left it in his place. Suddenly, every inch of my brains moved towards ANGER.

ANGER:
2pm he msged that he's coming soon and he couldn't find the "million dollar papers". At first, i was feeling very depressed...and i couldn't focus on studying my labour law notes for exams... but as i look at the time, i realised that i have waited 2 hours!! "Why did he make me wait for 2 hours, when he said he's coming?" From guilt, i started to feel hot with anger. Why is he always late??!! i know that from PoV, people are late, because they feel that they are not needed, their presence is redundant (self-worthlessness). Of course lah, just studying mah. But i just can't get peace in me! So, i want to make him remember that i can't be bullied.

I leave the lib and i saw MingJian(MJ). So surprising to see him!! I told him what happened, and he advised me to wait for him just a while longer. Just then, a msg arrived and he said he just came with some stuffs i asked him to bring. So upon MJ's advice, i went back to retrieve the stuffs, and left the lib.

I know i can't stay in the lib, because i know something's gonna happen. That very moment when i tot i lost hope of recovering the papers,I called WeiLin to ask whether the million dollar papers are with her. And to my greatest relief, ITS WITH HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And i broke down!!!!!!!!!!! Not because of the papers, but because all the suppressed anger about the guy can be released!! No more guilt to suppress it!!

WHY on earth do i need to cry so badly??
After-effects of PoV, i supposed. How can i cry for such a small incident?? It's about 2 months after PoV already! Now then i cry ah. hahaah`~*My lag is quite serious ah. So, this is "the process", told by the PoV trainers. The end of the course is a start to experience the process.

I felt so 委屈, to have to wait for a guy. I have been waiting for guys all my life. My crush for 3 years in sec sch(whom i have loved unconditionally), my 3 bfs (whom all 3, i think deep down there was never love, because true love doesn't contain jealousy and hatred), and now my last crush (whom i gave up on him 2 weeks back)! I just put on my "*~Dream are Free~*" column on the right side of my blog, saying that i want to breakdown and cry when i am able to accept any man into my life just yesterday, and today...hahha~ I guess the emotions from the past are releasing now... but am i ready to accept anyone yet? No, not now. Til the day i'm able to shine!~ hahaahAHA~* and from now on,i will never, ever go after guys anymore.No more waitings..

Last night, i had a dream. Its been a long time ever since i had any dreams. I dreamt of, Mr. Nicholas Chia!!! ahhaAHA~* Sort of some stupid dream scenario, i dreamt of him going after me and the moment he wanted to kiss me, i ran away and i woke up in shock! haha what oh earth is a man old enough to be my dad wanting to do that??!!

After some thinking, i rem what Hiromi, my adored PoV trainer, she mentioned that anything that's happening in my dreams, i am that person. I am the one who want to find true love, yet i am also the one who is running away from true love. Why? its deep in the unconscious level. There are generally 4 states of the mind, Conscious, Subconscious, Unconscious andthe Higher mind. For details, just ask me lah, so hard to type out everything now...

Hmm, honestly speaking, my ideal partner consist of both Nicholas Chia and Dr. George, but now more of Mr. Chia. haha~ He's the better-looking one (*hahAH~*) and, he believes in settling his marriage early! i got to know that he got married at 20 and now, he's still happily together with his wife! So sweet~* Charismatic with a sharp nose!! Tall and when he smiles, wah piang! Can i label him as the "Fei Xiang" of Singapore? haha~* =) but he's more than just Fei Xiang! He became the CEO of Bank of America (Asia Pacific region) at the age of 29!!! In the board of directors meeting back then, having 14caucasians on the board, he was the only Asian!! Over the past 2 decades, he has helped 36 companies get listed! What a feat! You know the Swensen's at crown prince hotel @Orchard? He was the one who revived it 10 years ago and made it become world famous! He's supposed to be retired now with the fortunes that can last more than 3generations(only 40plus of age), but he's willing to come to WBG and become the CEO and help our company get listed! That's the power of WBG's misson: To reach out to all, for everyone to enjoy the healthy Hunza lifestyle. With Nicholas being the elected chairman for Direct selling association of Singapore (DSAS), i am sure he'll be able to wipe out the tarnished image by illegal,ill-educated MLM companies and bring glory to these industry! HAha~ Heroic Nicholas!! Back to my topic...

What does it mean from this dream? hmm...i'm running away from my perfect man. Yeah, i know. And i still want to run away first. Cos, i wanna chiong for my career 1st! i see no point going after guys, unless they come after me lah, save my time.haha~* When i told a silly friend of mine "Don't you think having a gf to work with you is great?". He replied "Don't you think having a gf now is like a burden when you need to chiong for career?" Since then on, i generated negativities of having a bf right now..yup, i never had a true partner, not even when i had 3 past relationships. I wish to be able to enjoy life when i get my life partner,but now, need to chiong right after graduation, no time for relationships. On the lookout for suitable ones perhaps, But no ready for it too fast. haha~*

Felt so much better writing it all out! So tired after crying, i took a 4 hr nap!! Damn, need to finish all my readings, else can't score for exams liao~

My Iris scan!!!! scary.......

Wow.... This is interesting!!! I just taken an iris scan with the iris scanning device i borrowed and i've taken photos of my pair of eyes from my 42inch BIG TV!!!!!!!!!

(It's midnight 3.30am)

This is so scary......

Right eye: (generally visible ones, actually there's more...)
a) A "hole" at my 5 sense (no wonder i can't smell well, taste food well)
b) Problem with bladder

c) Problem with thigh, leg area

d) Problem with neck and shoulder

e) i shall not mention....hahaha~~*

Left eye:
a) Deep line at 5 sense area
b) Heart (i got irregular heartheat)
c) Kidney area and erm...shall not mention also...
d) Mid back (yup i've been having backaches)

Can you all see it clearly? In a clock-wise direction, there's a dark patch between 11 to 1o'clock of my both my eyes. That's where my brain is located. And do you all see the "Loolipop white rings"?? That's my stresslines, due to lack of sleep....I thought i am very healthy, because i've NEVER EVER visited a doctor before or eaten any medicine! (except taking vaccines in sch,wanna "keng" MC twice from the clinic) Well, if you all dunno what's this all about, its called Iridology.

Brief history:
150years ago, in Budapest, the capital of Hungary, there was a doctor by the name of Ignatz Von Peczely. When he was 10, he discovered a phenomenon by chance. He observed a pattern, a nature’s record of the eye. One fine day, when he was playing with his pet owl, he fractured the owl’s leg by accident. In a moment, he spotted a sign. At the lower part of the bird’s iris (6 o’clock direction), a black line appeared, and it reflects upon the broken leg’s position. Eventually, it changed into a tiny black spot, enveloped by a white ring. This childhood experience left a deep impression in the doctor’s mind.

Initially, Dr. Peczely did not notice the relationship between the change in bird’s iris and its body. It was until 1861, when he was treating his ill-stricken mother, that he uncovered this relationship. When he was 36years old in 1862, Dr. Peczely developed a deep interest in the knowledge of medical knowledge and hence, went to Budapest for medical studies. In 1866, he started medical treatment, and at the same time, published his first book on Iridology, titled “Discovery in the Realm of Nature and Art of Healing”; this work was promoted by a German, August Zoeppritz, and later on, Dr. Emil Schlegel also published a book regarding the research results report of Dr. Peczely.

Some info about Iridology:
Iris diagnosis (Iridology) is a subject based on changes in the iris to analyze health condition and recovery process. On the other hand, it can work together with modern medical tests, to in order to prove iris diagnosis’ accuracy. Doctors in developed nations like USA, Japan, Korea are even using it as a tool for diagnosis before body check ups!!! Why is Singapore lagging so much? haiZz~~*

Do you remember whether any of these happen to you often: Feeling flustered, short of breath, dizziness, headache or lethargy, but brain scan, blood pressure and health check-ups reveals no abnormality?

If these are true, you may be in a state of “Subhealth”, also known as the “grey state”, or “semi-healthy”. Subhealth refers to the state in between being healthy and diseased. It is often diagnosed as the Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.

Anyway,i'll be coming up with an official website(With multi-millionaire, Jet's help), gathering support from the Iris Analysts from an association in Singapore. The website will be http://www.onemillioniris.com (not done yet!!)and we aim to help at least one million people discover their health conditions, understand what is Metabolic Syndrome, Syndrome X, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (why young people "suddenly" get illnesses, but do you really think its SUDDENLY??!!)
Know any people who seem to be healthy, suddenly developed serious medical conditions?
Do let me know if any wants to go for an iris check-up! One million Iris!!!! That's my 1st project after graduation! ;)

Durian @ Geylang Lor 11 bagus sekali!!~~*

(Bagus sekali = Very good!!!)

Well, some updates! Last night we went for C team's Durian outing @Geylang Lor 11!!!! Awesome!!! First time i've been there to eat durian and its sUpEr Creamy and YuMmY!~~~~!~*
Went to Dohby Ghaut to meet James and Weilin to study before that. Hmm, its quite a great day!

I realised that i love traveling to faraway places (e.g. from Woodlands to Changi airport, to SengKang) to study. I just love traveling, so i don't mind the traveling time. I feels like FREEDOM~*

This is super 自恋!! Photo i took in SMU toilet. So cool!!*

Ok! Its the Durian season!!! At least that's what i think it is. haha~* So fasinating! The durians are never-ending! First time i eat durian until i wanna puke. I thought i've eaten a 1kg durian cake! so creamy!! Having a camera photo at hand, it is the first time i felt camera phone's usefulness!

Celebrating 94th SCS 庆功宴!!! Our Assistant Coach(AC) Head and Asst. Head,

重量级的钟亮Zhong Liang (Num.3) and Ee Pin (lady in green beside) !!

YiPeEe!~YuMMmMy durians!~!~*

HEy TAmmy and Wilson made their worth here! Concentrated on attacking the durians!

Zhong liang knows how to act Cute at times! ;)haAHa~* Only 28 this year,

very eligible bachelor! (He ah...at first i didn't know much about him...But i found out he's a Double Masters degree holder, only average student in HIS school lah. From BeiJing University 北大 and NUS国大!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Note:You know how hard is it to get into 北大??!! Out of 4million people who wants to get into university in China, only 1000 gets into 北大!! And Zhong Liang's an average student there~~ Wohoo!!! Who wants him??!! Come register with me!!

That's our 主席，June (in red)! I simply love her!!!~* She's sure a great teacher! ;)

Oh that's our 三八team!!! We spent the whole night gossiping~ hahaaAH~*wanna know what Juciy issues about WBG people? Go check it out from them!

Get to know yourself better

This is the quiz that wan lin introduced to weilin and huiling (yah that's me,o'right ) explores it.

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. (True, but i can be unfriendly at times as well. haha~*)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior. (That's what i've been doing all along. haha~*Very true)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person. (Very true, too bad there isn't any now.haha~* not at the moment.)

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. (Yup i always believed in that~* Maybe that's why i dislike people going after me)

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job. (Very unusual career indeed. That's what i love~ hehe~* What if its gonna become the norm??!! OMG!!***)

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. (Yes! definitely! but find a regular job?? hmm... a regular career! Steady!)

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. (Yup~* Like what Dr. George have told me once, never stop trying and don't just try! Always do your BEST!*)

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. (Yes, now that explains why i've been getting angry easily these days...)

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. (hmm....that was a secret...or is it? do u people know that? hahaAHAH~~*)

So, i'll hereby promote this personality test! its @ http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Nice nice~* ;)

Army daze (days) has begun for my bro!

Army daze has started for my beloved brother,Henry!

Wow...kinda miss him now, so i reminded myself to take lots of photos to upload on this blog. I really can't believe KL can be so alright without his sister, Cynthia at home. Perhaps the fact that he's a guy, he's supposed to be strong. haha~*

At Pasir Ris Bus interchange! Henry had a black pepper hotdog from "1901". I rem having a vegetarian hotdog from KL (Kalau Lumpur) from 1901!!! Too bad there isn't any vegetarian hotdog in Singapore...


My dad's having it too!!! First time i've taken a good photo of my dad! hahaAAH~~* Rarely do we get a chance to go out together as a family.

"Welcome to Pulau Tekong"!The sceneries quite nice!
This is BMTC School 2, Whiskey (W) Company, my bro's bunk!
My brother's oath-taking session! Hmm...i fell asleep during the lecture. When i woke up and look to my right, the whole row of people were sleeping soundly as well (incl. my parents)!!
My brother and me, and his last moments with his crowning glory.(its rhythms!!! Damn i'm good!!~*) Gonna miss him!
My dad and mum eating! Hardly have any photos of them. So happy to take down their pictures! ;)

My sis Molly and my bro!


My brother back view. I took alot of backviews of him. Feeling kinda down, haiZZzz~ anyway he'll be back on 27 Apr, POP @ 12 June!!! hahaAH~~*

What's your definition of Responsibility?

Responsibility = SUCCESS: Self-recognition; feeling of achievement; receiving for yourself and others
This is what i have for my nick on msn... Why did i put this up?

A week ago at SCS (Success Consultant Seminar, which deals with finding back the real you, empowering the core strength that you have in life), Dr. George Lim mentioned about the 5 important values of a successful person, one of which is, Responsibility. Behind all these values, they are fuelled by happiness or else it wouldn't be our value. For example, if you value warmth, you have happiness perhaps due to the fact that you have a happy family, or if you value health, you feel happy that you have great health and lead a great life.

There's this friend of mine,James. One of his core values is Responsibility. I asked him, what kind of happiness do you get out of responsibility? He replied,"A sense of happiness when you get things done. Very fulfilling, and its like, you are in control of your own life". However, responsibility means pain, heartbreak,detestment...all started when i was in secondary school....

When i was in lower sec, everything seems so beautiful. I was in the most prestiage band of singapore(i do recognise that). Its a military band, Bukit Panjang Govt. High/ Teck whye combined military band (BT Band). We went for Outdoor Display Band Competitions, NDP, etc. Its the ability to command over 200students in a single uniform group that i'm very proud of. I'm the 开心果 of my clarinet section, always making my seniors "laugh-till-they-drop" during practice session. They can NEVER get mad at me...cos they love me so much!!!!!

The clarinet section is divided into 3 parts, 1st clari, 2nd clari and 3rd clarinet. I rem that i fought hard to become the 1st clarinet player, because i was the only one amongst the 3 girls from Bukit Panjang (BP)without music background. I really wanted to prove myself and get to the 1st. Day and night i brought my instrument home,practice, and practice, til the day for the mini-test, i almost couldn't make it. But i did it, after i begged for another go at it. I got in. ;) I was recognised soon after as one of the loudest players (loud does not mean good. hahaa~~*) I needed the loudness, the huge diaphragm power to project the music across the large field. I practiced hard, because i know thats my responsibility. If i do well, my team will do well cos we will support each other. Although i was in lower sec, i took things into my hands when i see things go wrong. During band competitions, me and my fellow mates team up together to solve problems, marching formations, music playing procedures, how to perfect the music, etc. Being able to get things settled fast while having fun, that's the time of my life~* I always remembered this saying when i first heard it "How great a leader, is determined by the amount of responsibilities he can take and carry."


Things took a huge turn during upper sec. I can nominated assistant sectional leader (ASL). I wasn't the popular ones, but i was the hardworking one. I worked hard, and at the end of the year, i got a rank on par with the band leaders, overtaking almost all the other sectional leaders. But what did i get? Hatred, detestment, confusions, sense of lost, sadness.


You know, the worst thing isn't me being called the witch, always scolding,shouting at pple. I do scold my juniors, but i'm always good to them after band sessions and they understand. Relationships with other ASL worsened because i took things into my own hand when i see the SL couldn't commit. I must admit that my communication skills are bad, but What hurts me most was my favourite guy friend, Kumar, i dunno what the hell's with him, he turned his back on me when i needed help most and formed "Anti-Annie Club". (Sounds childish..but it was really hurtful)I don't mine not having alot of friends. It didn't matter. When the world turned their back against me, it doesn't matter. But when ur best friend does that, it sux. Hell... What has leadership gotten me into? Till now, he still doesn't know what made him do that. He mentioned he couldnt stand my stuck-up mad face when i do trainings.. its all in the past now... but the sickening feeling of "responsibility = lost" seems to linger..


Why did i mention all these? i had a very short conversation with KL just now and he made me recall about this topic on responsibility. I asked him, "Don't u ever feel strange, like where's the line between being the leader of the pack and a friend? You have to be firm, be decisive when doing stuffs, sometimes kena misundestood to get things done, and after everythings done, the relationships sort of ...goes bad.." He had his own fair share on this issue, however, he said that, "used to have that.. but the trip to taiwan Richie demonstrated to me that it can co-exist. ya during the trip he show us how to b a leader and friend at the same time. He is fantastic. learn the skill along the way.. we r all so young.as long as you desire it.. it ultimately can b done."


Yup, long way to go, and since i brought this whole issue about responsibility up, i must take it into my whole hands and face it again. Woohoo!! Feels good typing it all out!!! Damn i'm good! hahaAHaa~~* Must let Kumar see this! ;) Wanna have a good look at my good friend?


He's really awesome!! If he doesn't smoke,don't be so sturborn, don't be fat, don't be indian, don't be black,(haha he doesn't mind me saying this), don't be slack, i might go after him! hahaAHaA~~*
He's very caring, huggable, loveable, a percussion instructor, and most of all, he understands Chinese!!!!!!!!!! He loves Chinese more than his Indian neighbour! haha~~*
Ok enough promoting him!If you all got any girls who likes Indian guys, do intro! haAHAa~~* ;)

Saya menginginkan untuk mendapat seorang pacar, tetapi...

FwaAHaAHaAHaA~~*
Great news!!! Lin's Mr. Ah Du jioing her out to church!! and me, feeling so GREAT about this good news, announced to the whole world (which consist of KL + ML, lin's world of impt pple)!!! I really feel great for her,reminds me of how my second bf asked me out...feel so LOVED~* ;)

Saya menginginkan untuk mendapat seorang pacar, tetapi...(Bahasa Indonesia)
I wish to get a boyfriend, but....
Don't feel the need yet. All my life, my motivations were all from Mr. Price Charming, crushes on different guys.. E.g. when i go for 2.4km runs, band marching practices under the hot sun for long hours, all my motivations were from Jeffrey (My crush during sec sch, the only person i think i ever really loved with no expectations, liked him for 3 whole years) He was someone who, even when he got a new gf, i really wished the best for him. There was no jealous, no unhappiness..until he started smoking...

For once in my life, i want to use my own inner strength to accomplish what i want to do in life. No emotional dependence on any guys, because only i can have complete control over my life, there should be no dependencies, unless i am able to control my feelings. I want to have the passion over the things, the visions i'm feeling for and head towards it. EVerything is falling in place... Freedom is coming...(mustn't forget the financial issues i need to settle,haha~~*)

This coming weekend is the "Explore your health through your Iris" 2-day session @ Fort Canning Centre!~ I'm feeling soexicted over it, that i have came up with a whole list of programme to make sure this iris sessions carry on endlessly! I will make referrals so easy that it will sustain forever! The iris rooms are gonna open up for my people!!!

Action speaks louder than words! Take action first and i'll speak more about the results! ;)
What next is the exciting Jason Shi's workshop! It will surely bring an impact about thy biz!~ Jiayou Annie! You Rock!! ;)

Countdown to Freedom!~~ No more guy chasing for me!

Burn the "Manual for Guy-chasing"!!!

Last night, had a chat with WeiLin~ Talking about guys, future, the usuals. All of a sudden, i tot of what Genecia asked me, "What do u see in him? (That particular guy i have been liking for the past 2 years(yes, 2 whole years ALREADY!))" I replied,"I see future with him..."and the usual... She said,"Hmm, let me think who he is... ah! That guy? He doesn't seem to be too mature..."..

At first, I didn't take it quite to heart, because i know that she doesn't know him quite well. But i just realised that, "hey~ Maybe she's right". I haven't seen much guys for quite a long time. And all my feeds about guys are from either Weilin, or weilin and still weilin. and most of the time, she can only talk about it MJ + KL + James + the recently-added "Mr Ah-Du". How am i supposed to know other guys greater than them?

I was like the frog, looking out of the well and seeing only 1 guy staring back. He was the World to me. All of a sudden, i feeling like jumping out and seeing the rest of the World! It was just a sudden thought. I feel very at ease now,just like the feeling after PoV. no more wanting to hang on to him. Perhaps it was the joining session i had during the previous day. Feels like, i dun wanna go after guys anymore. Its the tagline "If you want me, come and claim me.." (Sounds familiar? from Lord of the Rings! haaha`~~)

There have to be guys greater out there! Although there is still feelings left for him (Hey come on leh, i'm not so heartless..He's Jeffrey num 2 leh~~* well only lin knows this), if its destined, then we will be. Else, there must be better people out there for me. ;)

Counting down to end of "Freaking uni-life!!" Less than a month!! yiPeeEee~~* can't wait to the end of it!!! Time to end this! lesson time! be back at night for more updates! ;)

Jason Shi's coming to Singapore! and i'm going for it!~*

Today, i came across Henry's blog!! I just happened to think surfing Jet's blog, when i saw him linking it to that of Henry's. Henry's the GPD of WBG, a self-made multimillionaire who has businesses across nations such as Japan, Australia, Malaysia, Indonesia, and Thailand is his latest homebase, where he collaborates with Mr. Sanan Angubolkul, the Group president of Srithai Superware Public Company Limited, the world's largest manufacturer of 100% melamine tableware, and owner of Mariott and Grand Hyatt hotel in Thailand. (wow...long introduction)

There's this article he posted about Jason Shi.I believe that there's no coincidence. A few days, Cynthia mentioned to me that she is going to Jason Shi's seminar. Shih Ying told me that she had troubles taking mc from her company to go for his session. And Today, i met up with Cynthia and she mentioned to me that Guo Liang, a.k.a KL is going to Jason Shi's workshop amist the busy examinations. No one is asking me to go(because exam's coming up for me too), however, its Henry's blog which made me want to go for it! Nothing is coincidental...below is a short list of what will be taught:

Summary of curriculum:

Basic skills:
1)Set WBG direction
2)How to share aout MLM
3)How to share about career
4)How to do one to one sharing better
5)How to do one to many sharing better

Multiplication skills:
1)Success techniques from consumers to business oriented team
2)How to sustain consumer sales
3)How to sustain/help distributor growth

Group Management skills:
1)How to organise different meetings for different people.

Education system versus Duplication system
Who should attend:
1)GCs and above
2)All partners who are keen to succeed as a full fledged WBG networker, now or eventually.
3)Love and understand culture of WBG and want to make WBG work.

Why are we particular about this? This is not a workshop for new networkers who have not yet known WBG is all about. Business oriented leaders with love for WBG will benefit most from the workshop.

This is what i wanted! Although the examinations are nearing, but this blog is very motivating! I'm really thankful of Jet for having set up the blogs... Jet's blogsite address is at my sidebar. Henry's full article is @http://jettoh.multiply.com/journal/item/99. Do go check it out! ;)

What i look for in a guy...

Today i was at WeiLin's place, and she told me something that hit me.
"Chemistry". For the guy i want to be together with to work in the WBG career, chemistry is very important! How fun will it be, if i am able to get the love of my life and work happily together!

Of course, i need to 打开心窗 before i am able to attract the man of my life. So, what do i look for in a guy? Guys who wanna queue up, here's the list:


What do I look for in a guy?
1. I see future together with him. Future of doing things that will last for our lifetime. A mission in life together is very important, because we are going to last forever…
2. I have complete trust and faith in him that he will stay loyal to me, and love me for life.
3. Mutual understanding, must have a good temper and filial to parents.
4. Nice low tone voice. Baritone. =)
5. Can be average looking, but must be charismatic.
6. Dares to do whatever I do not dare to do/ or dares to do everything I dare to do. hahaha~~* Gutsy! ;)
7. Decisive, and have a specific goal in life to move forward to, that will keep him driving up higher and higher. A guy who knows what he wants.
8. I am able to complement for his weakness. He should be able to complement me as well.
9. Life with him must have excitements! And even quiet times I will appreciate it as well.
10.Must do WBG business together with me. A Must.
11.Funny, in any sort of ways.. ;)
12.I love guys with a determined look on their face!!! So charming!!! If determined at times, cute at times, it’s the best ah!!!
13.Must know when is serious time, when is play time. 公私分明
14.I must like him of course! Eyes and hairstyle are the best way to get me attracted to them…oh I missed those electrifying eyes….hahaaAHaaaAHa~~*
15.Gentle loving care once in a while is perfect. Not too much, I like to be independent and not be treated like an infant.
16.Cannot be touchy. I like it when we just sit close and stay quiet sometimes, but small sweet talks is good. haha~* His presense is good enough.

17.He must like me for who i am. I am not a representation of any idols.
18.Able to discuss work together and work as a team. 梦幻团队，黄金组合！
19.He has the same vision as me, to go around the World helping poor people, make their lives better. Travel together with our loved ones, just like the ending of 《大长今》. It doesn't matter if we ever become the richest people like Bill Gates and his wife, it matters that we are happy and we live to the fullest!

20. Yes. Chemistry is the most important thing to spark off all relationships. The one who is able to open up my heart, 打开我的心房.

In this year, i have finally set myself a goal, acknowledge to the fact that i am graduating soon and will have to step out to the society to work. Today, i met up with a consumer, Edmund, to fix his Kinertec. I was with James and afterwards, he sent us to Kovan MRT station to drop us off. Suddenly, i felt the distance between me and him, as in communication-wise. I am not well-equiped at all to talk to professionals. That gave me quite a bump on the head. Why am i like this? Do i wanna stay like a kid, and always dread about losing my freedom? Just when i thought of that, Grace Lee's image just went through my head. I can be the same as her. She grew up in WBG and being the daughter of a multi-millionaire, yet she is able to work with us in WBG, this networking business. I really admired her for her guts and charisma. She worked her way up to her ranks, and i want to be like her. This goal of mine, i set myself, is to become GCD by 31st Dec '07.

It sounds real far, because i have yet to even reach GM. I will have to get 62.5 WS before reaching this goal. How am i gonna reach it? Last time, i used to dream of some rich uncles, thinking that HUNZA products are good, and will generate this "chain-effect" to more and more downlines buying products. But that's not gonna work! Nothing can be accomplished without hardwork, without educating pple and communicating with them. It is plain, blood-sweat hardwork.

There was once, when Jacky Chan was in a hotel where he was surrounded by fans asking for his autograph. A man went over to him. Instead of asking for his signature as well, he asked," Jacky, what is the key to your fame and success today?"

Jacky paused. He stopped to think. And he replied,"Hardwork". He went into deep thoughts again and replied once more with strong affirmation,"Yes, its Hardwork, definitely hardwork". Now, this is the man i love to be with.. and i want to be like him as well.

So, to get to GCD within this year, i have to work real hard with my leaders, partners and i will most likely, be single for this year. Not the time for relationships, but will still keep a lookout ;) Any good guys, or 吴尊look-alikes, pls recommend!! haaaAHAaH~~* ;)

PoV- Relationships card~*

Hey hey~ Its PoV again! :)

I'll like to publish what i have to my close friends, so, this blog is not for advertising whatever bullshits i want the world to know. hmm...when i started this blog, i was thinking, "Hey, am i gonna let the world know all about my private stuffs? What's the use of a online diary when i can write it in a book?" Actually i love writing it all down...more private, can write anything you want and no one will find out(most properly).

But you see, why i started this is because:
1) Its kinda fun at the beginning. dunno when i'll stop. haha~*
2) Because pple dun understand what the hell i'm talking about sometimes~ kinda irritating...but i like it~~~haahAHAa~*
2) Maybe i really want people to know who i am. I want pple to find out.(paradoxical, but that's what happening to alot of pple in life. THey don't want to be poor, but actually deep in the unconscious mind, they want to be poor because there are reasons for not wanting to be rich as well )

Talk about the unconscious mind next time. ;) For this, i'll recommend 2 of Hiromi's books, namely; 《幸福，从心开始》 and 《驯夫讲座》.The first book deals with happiness in life. If you believe that you deserve happiness, this is a definite MUST-READ!!!!
For book 2, if you're a lady, whether single or married, if you desire to find the man, the love of your life and live together to ripe old age, this is WHAT YOU MUST 100% READ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't say any further, but you will know after reading it. ;) its only available in Taiwan, because singapore don't really have alot of good chinese books around. haizZz.. Anyone wanna place orders? haha~ I will get a few copies the next time my friend goes to Taiwan. ;) The first book is available at Kino, hopefully there's stocks because the last time i went to search for it, its all sold out.

Ok! so what "Juicy issues" this time?
Issue: Should i stay on hanging to the same guy, hoping things will turn out the way i want it to, or should i go move on?

Card 1:Valuelessness -Feelings of worthlessness tied in with guilt (often hidden under compensation)
Valuelessness is a core feeling of the unconscious mind which is so painful that we feel as if we are totally worthless. Valuelessness is closely linked and tied in with guilt. Much of this feeling comes from places where, as a child, there was a traumatic family happening, and we blamed ourselves, left our centres and went into sacrifice. But this just increases the feeling of valuelessness. Typically, we compensate for this feeling by becoming practical and hard workers to 'prove' that we are useful and not merely decorative. But all of this 'proving' our worth doesn't allow for very much receiving. The receiving it does allow for is lost in paying off the stress of working so hard. Many times people will have spent a whole lifetime working hard and doing useful projects. Then they come to the end of their life and feel it was all valueless.

Using the card: If you receive this card, you are being asked to look at the feeling of valuelessness as the core source of the present problem or situation. Also, look for signs of compensation which hide the feeling from us, because we will have to face it at some point. With this card, just sit down for a moment and ask what Heaven's value is for you, or what your Higher Mind has to say about your value. If you intuitively ask what earlier situation brought on the feelings or situation showing up now and imagine yourself back in that situation, you will see the Light within you reconnecting you with everyone in the situation. Ask your Higher Mind to return you to that centre of peace, innocence and being, where grace can pour through you to help heal the situation. Your Higher Mind can accomplish this for you, and you can just witness it. When it occurs you will have a feeling of peace. However, if this isn't accomplished easily, or if the peace doesn't feel complete, it means there is an earlier trauma than the one you have reconnected with which must be healed. At the core of all misunderstandings and all problems there is an experience of separation. When the reconnection is made, the problem is healed.


Card 2: Inspiration - Willingness to receive answers with inspired energy; intuition
Inspiration means you don't have to figure things out, or think about them. Ideas and answers pop into your head and the energy carries you forward, if you allow it to. Planning (which is not the same as setting goals) is a way of ritually killing all inspiration, which transcends the need for planning. There is nothing you need do for inspiration, except to have the willingness to receive it. Inspiration goes beyond thinking, to creativity itself. Today you will receive the concept which grants success. Not only is the answer waiting for you, it will be one which is exciting to receive - with the emphasis on receiving more than doing. Today you will see the world in a new way; you will see the natural connection between ideas and people, answers will be given to you and everything will be moved forward to a new level. While inspiration is about seeing and feeling the way forward, it is mostly about 'knowing' the way forward. Inspiration brings both the answer and the inspired energy with it, so that you are carried with the energy, and there is no effort on your part.

Using the card: If you receive this card today, you may be receiving inspiration which will inspire others, or find that others are inspiring you. You may find that you are inspiring - or being inspired by - those you love the most, your co-workers, or someone else around you. This gift is a present for you. If there seems to be any blocks today, stay aware and be open to the possibility that the answer wants to come to you easily and with fun.


Card 3:Success - Self-recognition; feeling of achievement; receiving for yourself and others
Success as a Gift card means a whole new level of success is coming into your life, with which you will feel you have achieved significantly and move forward a great deal. A new level of recognition, of having what you want and of success in every area can come about for you – if you allow it. You are reaching a new horizon in your life; as you do, you will know that other horizons will spring up before you, and that this is a movement forward in recognising both yourself and your natural gift of success. Receiving this as a gift for yourself is to receive it as a gift for those around you; as a gift principle, as you succeed, you give these people your permission for success.

Using the card: If you receive this card today, it means everything is coming your way. Any blocks which are presenting themselves to you are doing so because either there is something for you to learn (in order to increase your success), or there is a certain fear of letting go of control, which stops your natural success. When you ski, you don’t control the mountain. You go with its flow. In the same way you just allow success; it is neither giving up, or trying to make it all happen your way. The best way for success to happen is imminent, so be open to this gift today. Success is really an attitude and a choice, and the more you share it with others, the more it is reinforced in you. Receive success today as a gift. Your giving of yourself has naturally succeeded. Now is the time to reap the reward. Enjoy your success. Share it with those around you. Be ready as the next horizon appears.
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Hmm.....sounds "chim"?
Well, most of the time, only people who went for PoV will understand the card's meanings. :)

Well, Valuelessness...to me... perhaps it means that i felt like a nobody to him. Maybe not even a friend. Earlier tramua, i still remember when i was 7, it was the first time i didn't have a birthday celebration. Being the princess of the family, i felt so sad.... but we didn't have the money to buy a cake. My father, seeing me so upset, brought me to Orchard road....i remembered that i was feeling guilty for wanting to have a birthday cake when we are poor, so all the while in orchard road, my head hang low....looking at the "fruits"tiles along the orchard road(If u realise, there are tiles like that). That was my memory of Orchard road (i grew up not liking that place at all, but i'm ok with it now).

We walked into A&W( fast food restaurant which stopped operations years ago). My dad bought me a meal, and i still remembered, he didn't want to eat. He wanted it all for me. That curly-fries, i still remember. I was so sad.... No more birthday celebrations ever after.....

So, every year, i felt birthday is like a sad thing... even this year, when i celebrated birthday, i felt so sad...for wanting pple to join me, but i felt bad for not being able to treat them. I felt like i have made everyone suffer with me, like my dad did... Everytime i recall this happening, i still feel like crying....Unforgettable, and i have to learn to forgive myself...(letting go is hard. so work harder!! Inspiration and Success~*)



















Friends enjoying A&W fries after a hearty meal at .... i forgot which restaurant. I think its pizza hut. AHAHaAH~~~*
Hey! i got this picture from KL (Kuala Lumpur, not Kok Leong!) December '06! I was so delighted to see A&W operating there!!!! I'll look for it one day and bring back a meal for my dad!!! haaAHaA~*

oH man~ i love curly fires from A&W!!!! McDonald's can't beat them to that!!!



















We were at KL to attend 陈安之's course. He's the top Asian discipline of Anthony Robbins. Motivational and potential development trainer, he's World renowned, most famous in Asian countries like, China, Taiwan and Malyasia. I even had a photo with him! Wow i really know how to divert topics. From the way i write blogs, now i know partially why pple can't understand me....hahaAHaA~~*

Hmm that's all for today! Next blog should be, the qualities of a guy i look for! ;) Waiting for my "window opening period". “打开心窗” haAHaA~*

*~Life after Psychology of Vision (PoV)~*

Hm....its been 1 month from the last PoV. Can't imagine i really spent $1200 on 2 PoV sessions without feeling any pinch...but its definitely worth it. :)

How should i say? its about, Facing yourself. Recognizing who you are, and everything that happens to us or around us, we wanted it to happen. Nothing is coincidental.

I may be quiet most of the times, but actually in fact, i put alot of blame to fate, circumstances, inability to grab hold of my destiny, why can't i speak well, why am i always having uncommunicative relationships with guys, why can't i get my dream guy,etc. Now that after PoV, although i had no one else to put the blame on, however, i feel...well...GREAT! That actually i can manipulate, pathe out the way i want to live. Its...Freedom. Its total control over who i want to be!!!

So what comes after knowing all this?
Solve all the issues that blocking my path to what i desire to have or to be!

I do alot of PoV 3-card readings on this site www.psychologyofvision.com (For those who have not been to PoV, you may not understand what its trying to tell you, but i can tell you that all myPoVmates who tried it, all tells me its very accurate!)

Having the card-readings, i believe that in the Higher mind that will guide me to the answers i have to know. Being a self-assured person, if i get to know the problems and "go through the process" of solving it, i can definitely go far in life. But i have to always tell myself not to dwell too much into PoV stuffs. Its kinda addictive. haha~*

So, what are my "Juicy" issues? (*haha*Hiromi style)

Issue: What is blocking me to reaching success now? Why am i not motivated to moving fast? Where is that furious drive that i used to have long ago?

Card 1(Problem): Ancestral Problem-Problems passed down through several generations
Oh my god!!! I realised that this is passed down from both sides of the family, probably around 6generations, began with man and it was probably about money issue. If i do not solve it, future generations will be poor. Bad relationships will be passed on to us as a result, and if left unresolved, it will also be passed down to future generations. Yup, definitely. Both my parents do not have good relationships with siblings at all. Both my parents used to be rich, but dad's ancestors fought over money and spilt it all, my mum abandoned wealth to be with my poor father(How brave! and...hmm...). And my father's side, 8 out of 11 are unmarried!!! So how am i gonna solve it?
Need help from the Higher Mind...

Card 2(The Way Through):Letting Go - Releasing past loss and needs; coming into a present perspective; opening to the next step
Letting go heals holding on, expectations, stress and perfectionism, all of which are based on some picture of, or demand for, how things, others and yourself should be. These demands are your idea for what would meet your needs. This constantly leads to disappointment or frustration, because no matter how well you have ‘written’ your script for happiness, it will not succeed with demands or needs. Needs secretly push away what they are trying to get, and demands repel and create resistance or sacrifice. Well, i'm constantly holding on to something to protect myself from harm... Letting go is hard... however if i really want the Gift, i have to do my best..

Card3 (The Gift): Vision - Continuous inspiration; allowing creativity; giving yourself totally; letting a positive future direct the present; healing through seeing spiritual reality


Sounds good. This is the one i love best... i'll move towards my vision if i solved this issue!! I want good relationships and i want the love of my life~* I want a future, the one i want to be!

I remembered once during a course "TNT", which i attended, Veron once mentioned that, if i am not able to find my vision and work towards it, i will be very miserable... I truly believed in it, because ever since i left my beloved band and it got disbanded, life feels miserable, so sick and dull. Its only when i see WBG, i see a certain light, that there's something more than what being in a military band can give me. Its, a sense of ever-lasting, never-dying feel that this is the business which i can do forever and it will not leave me. I can do this WBG, Life-reversing business forever and i'll be happy. :) I can spread it to the 3rd World nations, have organic agricultural businesses and they will be able to prosper, etc. People, will become happier. Life becomes beautiful, as it should have been...

Sounds draggy now...

This is not gonna end very well for my first write, but sorry ah, tired liao. haha!~~*
Well, i wanted to write about relationship..well, next post then! ;)