Sometimes, if not, most of the time nowadays...i think i'm living in hell...
Before getting to know about God, i was thinking that anyone who wants to die must be insane..mental.. out of their mind..
But now, after knowing that there's Life after Death, there's a Heaven waiting for us... there seems to be a good place to be.. especially when Life on Earth can be so tough...
Hm...i was thinking of writing an Eulogy, so that when i die, people will not be too sad...my parents wouldn't feel too bad if i leave them early because i wanted to go to somewhere better.
Living out the faith journey is so tough sometimes... as i pray for Anthony, the same old guy, it felt like running a never-ending marathon... when's it going to end? What's going to be the outcome? I pray for the best outcome from God...
I prayed a whole night yesterday, and prayed for God's revelation about the outcome..i had numerous dreams that, when i woke up, i couldn't remember any of it.. i guess...God's plan is still pending....further notice to be given... Yah, it should be as well, since God's handling someone whose been confused, one who has a STRONG and NEGATIVE mind, and messed up with his life all these years...
St Monica prayed for 30 years for her prodigal son, St Augustine to repent from his foolish way of life... Am i to do that as well? I pray not to... i'm not as strong as her... maximum 3 years, i think i'll be withered and expired already...
I pray that when i die, i will just die in his arms...that'll be a good farewell before i leave him to see the Father... and pray for his salvation when i'm in
heaven...be his guardian angel...
Its been a long time since the last said...
"Anthony, I Love You."
God's will be done.
Amen.
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