Power Struggle

He "stepped on my toes" today, and i flared up.

Man... i thought i could control my emotions, but i just seem to not be able to, in front of the man i love.

I name this stage "Independence" stage, and also further into it, its "Power struggle" stage in psychology terms.

Couples, when they get together, usually there are 3 stages. Namely, Dependence stage, Independence stage, and Interdependence stage.

Will talk abt the 3 stages some other time...
Just wanna whine abt this Power struggle now..

I do realise a long while ago, that i have a big ego. BIG BIG one. I totally cannot stand myself being labelled as a "whiny old woman","a typical woman", "a woman who follows her man wherever she goes", etc. I am NOT that kind of woman. I seek freedom to do stuffs, and in my way.

My guy, is also a man with a passion for Freedom. Man, has ego. Default. If they have no ego, something is going wrong there... So, sometime we have struggles with that. If i say or do anything "too much", i'm labelled a typical woman. The thing is i KNOW he doesn't mean it, but i STILL flare up!!! Sometimes i know certain things will hurt his ego, and i PURPOSELY commit it!!! Damn! We have to recognise this struggle and manage it.

Wah...i never imagined after such a long drought with no relationships, getting into one really takes effort on both sides. To go into Interdependence stage will take a while, but working towards it. I pray that he does it as well...

Bottle Tree Park and Paint balls!!

Checked out a new place last sat with Neil, Mitchell and Anthony!

Happened to pass by Khatib MRT after jamming session, and we saw something very beautiful!
A large pond! with large "swans" floating around!

The place is called "Bottle Tree Park"!!!
Check it out at www.bottletree.com.sg

It was a good discovery. Because although the place isn't satisfactory for our fishing desires (fishing arena too small,not shiok at all), we saw a new place!

The place is called "Redynasty"!!!
Check it out at www.weplaypaintball.com

That's the more interesting place! Will wanna organise groups to "fight it out" there!! ;)

PACKAGE A - The Shooting Gallery (30 paintballs per pax) - $10.00 per pax
PACKAGE B - JAMES BOND (50 paintballs per pax) - $25.90 per pax
PACKAGE C - THE GODFATHER (100 paintballs per pax) - $35.90 per pax
PACKAGE D - RAMBO (250 paintballs per pax) - $49.90 per pax

Hmm...for 2 hrs plus, i'll go for the package D of course!! Maximum fun!! ahahaAH~~*
Must organise trips to that place someday! ;)

I believe...

I believe...

There must be a reason for me to stay on in ESABEE for the weekly functions..
Not sure about it, but perhaps its the spiritual sense that is making me stay on..

I am not doing recruitment for sure, and i feel totally comfortable (which was not the case a few weeks back). I found a religion and exploring about it, and i find myself more at peace nowadays... And i can go functions feeling great! Strange, but..haha~ not sure why... but i believe that there's a good reason why i'm hanging around..

From situation i see, in Penang and Kuala Lumpur in Malaysia, ESABEE is really doing great and function numbers are really growing each week to large numbers in hundreds! The whole of Penang and KL is starting to have a phenomenon on Eumora bars... more and more testimonials are flooding in... And i still enjoy my quiet trading supplies of Eumora overseas..

Hope the reason for my stay will reveal soon... :)

*~Fashion Paradise Pte Ltd~*

My dearest sister, Molly, has just started her mini small online shopping business!
Pls visit her site @ http://mollylee.blogs.friendster.com/fashion_clothings/

Why i like her shopping site:

1. My sis is very organised and responsible for her work (guarantee she wouldn't ran away, because she can't run away as well!) hahAAH~~*
2. My sis has good QC (Quality Control) for material of the clothes. But i think her fashion taste is weird. hahaH~~* so u all just see lah! Check out the nice photos.
3. My sis can deliver to me straight at home! ahahaAH~*
4. My sis has me to help her survey, check out which sites have good clothes, which sites clothes cannot buy, will con people's money...
5. My sis's choice of bags are all not bad. That's the only thing i think her taste is not too bad, can make it. aahaaAAa~*

That's what i can describe about my sister. hah~ bad elder sis i am. haha~~*

So if anyone seeks good online shopping, can check her site out. ;) A little advertise for her here.

Saudi Arabia and USA

Received enquiries from Saudi Arabia and USA, and we're into further discussions...

Feeling great today, because i'm sending sample Eumora bars overseas now, i predict that if all goes well, orders will start coming in within the next 2-3 months.

Learning about logistics and operation in my current company as well, just nice for the needs of my mini trading company. All about ex-works, FOB, freight charges and all those terms...its slowly, but steadily developing.

Looking forward to my Saudi Arabia contact more..as they seemed more sincere, and they have all the requirements i've wanted them to have. With dermatologist contacts, pharmacists, and they have their own sales and marketing group. Although company is not too big, we can start with small sales and big long term relationship. Not like some of the cocky USA firms i've met.

Looking forward to life ahead! Eumora rocks!! ;)

Down to Earth guy i've got.. =)

Recape on what i have blogged down in previous post Idealistic vs. Down to Earth,

I mentioned that i will want to be realistic and pray for this down to earth guy to come to me..
And this is what i've mentioned:
Now, what i want in a down-to-earth guy to...

1. Have passion for life. [Partial, he's responsible for whatever he's done, and he's got a dream that's similar to mine!!! ]
2. Be there to adore and care for me. Be there whenever i need him. Really love me for who i am. [Yes, at least for now. ahaaAHa~~*]
3. Friendly guy to know, so my close friends can generally accept.[Damn close lah,more people for him to know, but i don't think its necessary..i got too many friends leh..haha~]
4. Willing to change for the better. Not stubborn. Good EQ. [Willing to change for the better (depends) Stubborn (also yes) Good EQ (YES!)]
5. Be investment savvy. Knows how to manage finance. [That i am not sure, but he knows how to manage at least]
6. A determined guy. Once he sets to start something, he will not give up and pursues to the end. [I do perceive he is, yet to be shown]
7. Healthy guy without much bad habits.( I can tolerate drinking, but not smoking and clubbing.) [He failed this part, but he dislikes clubbing for sure.]
8. Loves to hear me talk, appreciates whatever i do for him. [He is one guy who really LISTENS to me, although he sometimes doesn't absorb it...haha~* but I LOVE him for that =) ]
9. Understands his priorities in life, values and beliefs. [Yup yup! He knows what he wants. Working towards it too!]
10. Have faith and hope for life. [Hmm.. he hoped for it, and i came into his life. That explains everything. ;)]

He's becoming the core of my life, and i am seeking a religion as well, in Roman Catholic faith. At the same time, trading continues for me in terms of overseas exports. Right now, life feels complete, except for the career fulfillment part. I will really want to go into music teaching again, by 2010. Life's good!

I pray for my guy to be able to quit smoking by his own will power, for his own health and for the sake of loved ones as well. I pray for fellow closed friends as well. I pray that God will guide them towards the path of a healthy wealthy life.

God bless...and I bless you too. =)

A New Life, a New page!

Feels like a new, refreshingly free life now!

A new blog page for a Fresh start!

I begin to cherish what i have lost a few years back... and will treasure them. =)

More updates when i have time! ;)

My significant other..

Hmm... feeling lost these 2 days.. haven't feel like this for years already..
He went Malacca on a business trip for 2 days... can't wait to have him back!

Having a significant other in my life, really makes my life more "shared". Like shared driver in computers. He shares part of my life. ahaAHa~~* what a description.

Really grateful to have him ard, especially when he came in, during this rock-bottom period of my life...
He became my light and source of hope and happiness. Although we had alot of misunderstandings, bad memories in the past, but all seemed faded and forgotten when we got back on talking terms after 8 years...

Things are all beautiful, lovely now... He really dotes me and i can really feel it this time... Better than any guys in my life. He's really more matured, responsible now than last time, and i felt glad for that. Nothing matters more than, we, working things out together for our future.

I am still quite at a lost, handling current new job, trading, debts, dreams of becoming a music instructor or musician myself... but with him around, i find strength to carry on living.. Having some plans in mind to accomplish before marriage. So! Now i have a time line and goal to meet before marrying off! =) At most 5 years that i'll give myself...

Hope we'll have a happily retirement plan, like, doing business. Perhaps a small niche cafe, or a small eatery store, having all our friends together till ripe old age...

Love my dearest.

The love of my life...

My sleeping prince... tired and burnout from work... time to reveal who he is!! (anyway, alot knows who he is already...hahaHa~~*)

Creations from the Mosaic function of my Samsung G600 5mega pixels phone...

Awakens from sleep and sees me clicking away! I was checking out the Mosaic functions..

Alright...he looks cool in this picture, but i look like a kid. haha~~

Me getting bored and he started weird poses for the shots! I love this one! So funny!

I bet some people are getting quite a shock here, esp Carine and some of the guys/gals in the old band group. haha~ Don't laugh ah...He was my first love, the one i loved most, the one i hated most, and i ended with him, AGAIN! Hmm...fate made our paths cross again, after 8 years.

Actually, i am not really able to recall ALL the bad things. Only certain parts, but most of them i forgot already. Maybe i'm doing what Arthur said. Don't live in the past. Live in the past, learn from the past. Everything is about a choice, and after making a choice to be with him again, i decide to make the best out of it.

Tough times lying ahead, especially within the next 2 years. I really hope we can work out everything together. =) Interdependency...i wonder how its really like...

Falling in love...after 3 years of singlehood...

hmm... recently met up with a guy...

Having a nostalgic feel now... Its not really a burning passionate "in-love" kind of feel... but a peaceful, calm, soothing sense...which i haven't experienced in a long time.. perhaps its because i knew him long ago already...

Most importantly, i think this time, its mutual. It is unlike those couple of guys i met this recent year.. none of the guys, no matter how handsome, how eloquent, how intelligent, how witty, all never gave me the "click" feel.

Recently met up with Tammie, and we had a good exchange of pointers, dealing with man. hAah~~ it was interesting. We, as woman, should really know our man inside-out and understand their needs, emotions, especially how to handle their ego. haAHaA~~ That's about being in-control of our emotions and not losing yourself in a relationship. I used to really plunge and fall badly....now, hell no man. I'm gonna play my game well this time. ;)

Women, should be confident of themselves at all times. In relationships, not only must we be independent, we must learn how to work out together with our other half, especially during bad times.. Interdependence. :) Hope he doesn't make any mistakes this time. Silly old boy... i will seriously kick him to Pacific Ocean if he dares to play me out again...

Therefore, I'll make the best out of this relationship once again, and even if it doesn't work out this time ard again, i'm not gonna cry over it and regret it... It's his lost if he doesn't want me. I'm good, ok?.. "I used to cry, but now i hold my head up high"... ;)

So, now, 24years old le!! Should really do something about my love life. haha~~* Looking to a brand new start with him. :D

Blast! Drumline Battery Battle

This is Blast! Drumline Battery Battle. One of the coolest Drumline shows i've seen on youtube. I got to see this while at Jeremy's place with Mitch and Anthony.

Learnt rolling on the sticks, taught by Mitch, so i checked out Drumline videos. This one Damn shiok lah! Enjoy! :)

Tommy Emmanuel - The Greatest Guitarist ever!!!

This is a video clip of Tommy Emmanuel, one of the Greatest guitarist ever! The song is, Somewhere over the Rainbow.

He's a personal favourite of Arthur Yap, and i actually "youtubed" him to find out how great he is. Arthur's a great musician as well, cos the songs he sang during the biz seminar TOTALLY blew me away!! DAMN GREAT vocals lah!!! He can compose music and lyrics!! He's actually very experienced with alot of musical instrutments (except the piano) haha~~

A little about Tommy Emmanuel: He's good, because he can play the bass, acomplement, melody and do tuning on a SINGLE guitar for an entire song! Its like, an entire song of different parts are played by a SINGLE person! That's why Arthur totally adores him...woohoo~

Quarter life crisis....

These are the longest hang-out friends i've ever have in my life... Best (and also worst) parts of my life spent with them...
Photo taken at Daniel's place, reunion dinner during CNY 2008.
Front (from left to right): Jeremy, Kumar, Mitchell, Me of course!
Back: Daniel, Neil and Anthony

Last time we used to hang out at Lot1 Mac, and now that everything there is changing, we relocated to...Wang Cafe!!! (just outside Lot1)

Alot has happened recently... quarter life crisis hitting me with dramatic career changes. All happened as quite a shocker. Alot of disappointments felt, seen through alot of faces, realities of life... And i thank God i still have these fellow friends around...

10 years we've known each other..they still do the same old gathering thingy. Nostalgia...

With the crisis hitting me non-stop, i seek peace and comfort with them. They don't have to say anything..but just be there and crack jokes, i felt 1000 times at ease and peace. Went over to Mitchell's place overnight for a few rounds of Mahjong, before heading to Penang later in the evening. Won $12!!! Alot came from Anthony...ahhaAHaha~~~* 13 "fans" i think? Treat him drink next time..haha~~

This is the photo of the sky i took while walking back home from Mitchell's place at 7am in the morning... Damn cool... reminds me of the days when i was still 18 years old and doing the same thing. Felt kinda different already, as this time ard, we've grown up, working in the society now, facing different challenges in life.

Hope this time, with the trip to Penang, my thoughts will be able to clear further, and when i come back, i will have decided how to move on with the directions best to be taken. Really Thank God for these friends, else i wouldn't have survived the mental stresses... (plus April's and Carine's pressence as well! Few of the greatest gal friends ever had =) Happy Birthday to April!!~~*~*~~*`` )

Display Band Competition 2008 (12 April, Saturday)

This was taken during the Band Competition 2008 actual day on 12 April, saturday. Just after Kumar had finished tuning the snare drums. Wow...my first ever Display Marching Band Competition was in 1998. And now its 2008. Once in 2 years, it is the 6th Band comp i've attended. It all feels like i have never left this Band..right at Teck Whye Lane.. So nostalgic...

Got a silver, but we went with pride and honour! Alot felt unfair, even other bands mentioned that we should have gotten at least a gold. However, i sincerely think that if our show was in 1998, a Gold is surely not a problem. We just didn't evolve with times... the formations, music pieces choosen, no climax...but it was a great showmanship of a TRUE BLUE singapore marching band! And we were complimented for being the only band still maintaining the singapore stylo, unlike others which are taking up an American drumcore-line (dcl) style.

2010, we'll be back with a vegence, and other bands will be taken aback by how we're gonna improve 1000times with the new generals (Dan and Kumar), who will take the lead! This is quoted ok? Not me who said this!

I'll be taking up Music Theory test this coming Nov, so as to path my way to becoming a band instructor. I realised that, one big roung i went and now, i want to be a Band instructor with the Band, and my life ends with it (if all else goes well.. ahahaa`~) Its all because of Kumar and Daniel lah....haiyo...i'll still be managing my Franchise trading biz (That's what i've been alive for). My Goals starts with Trading, and once financial freedom is attained, i'll move on towards My life-long vision and my life just ends with Band coaching. Both careers, is all about nuturing people. People development. Satisfaction is there... ;) I really admired Dan and Kumar for doing what they loved to do.. I'll be joining soon! 2010...

Romania here i come!!!

Great news today!! Trader alert!!!

Interested party from Romania!! Romania here i come!!! Entry with Mior facial spa bar!!

After several hiccups here and there from trading online, i began to know how to identify genuine buyers and traders (Thanks to the experience working in Citibank ;P)

A small India company is also interested, but i'm hesitating whether to send over the samples, worried that they aren't good at marketing it. hmm...will check them out first..

EU nation!!! My world conquer starts now! With Arthur, Jet, Serene and Pin!! God bless... ;)