Teck whye field...i'll own it one day...

This is my favourite place since sec sch....a place full of nostalgia, memories, the good, the bad, the happiest moments of my life....ALL here... @ Teck whye ...
This place has now changed to a temporary boarding area for schools undergoing renovation. After Teck whye sec left this premise, a few sec schools were here temporarily. Now, Bukit Panjang Govt. High resides here. GReat that we can have our Band Practices back here!!
That's the place where i always stand, overlooking the entire field. A good place to catch the sunrise as well. Bukit Panjang Govt. High (BPGHS) used to have a combine band with Teck whye sec (TW) and we are known as The BT Band. The GREAT BT BAND!!!! Ever Forceful Ever Graceful!! (sounds contradicting, but it's been a slogan since i dunno when....ahaa~~* The Band separated into individual bands since 2002 (and i was quite sad back then...), so now only the Bukit Panjang band (BP band) are having the Marching Display band competition. =) And we're back at the field!!!!
This field...full of memories... We used to spend ALOT of time at this place, MORE than my time back at BPGHS!! Although I'm from BPGHS, i'm more like a Teck whyian!! Not BPian..haha~~ That period was a time where i felt MOST committed to anything in life- BAND BAND BAND!!!
I go to this place as early as 5.30am each sat morning for band practices, and enjoy the morning sunrise. During vacations, my bunch of band "ka kias" (VERY good friends) will come in the morning, go nearby kopitiam to have breakfast, play bball, play soccer, play "alipom" (a type of catching game), play catching in the rain, anything and everything, till night time. There was a period of time we go back to this place EVERYDAY for a month!

That's nostalgia.... Oh i miss those days... Having band practices from morning 8.30am starting, but sectional leaders will want us to start early practice at 7am!!! That's shittish...but we still do it, because we enjoyed it! Totally awesome when u see 150over people marching early in the morning... I seriously miss those days..

I was back sch today. Seeing the younger generations doing their formation marchings. Hmm...10 years already!! Ever since my 1st Band Competition in 1998!! I couldn't believe it, and it felt like yesterday when we finished marching. It didn't feel like 10years... wow..

You know what...i couldn't believe when i saw this...my heart sank to the bottom...LOOK AT WHAT THE SCH DID TO THE TREES!!!! DAMN F**KING!!! HOW COULD THEY DO THIS TO THE TREES!!!

After leaving this place today, i went with Kumar to CCK to catch up with Anthony and Daniel. Had a good time chatting, recalling old times, and i really wanna spend good times back with these old guys. Meeting them these days really perks me up to work even harder in biz.

I set myself a target. Seems impossible. But that'll be what i'll be striving for.
"I want to buy this piece of land, this Teck whye land."
Sounds really kinda impossible, because firstly, its government-owned and second, i need to be darn freaking RICH!!!

It does help that i'm in the World Billionaire's Group (WBG). ahaaHAa~~ kidding..but i need to really work very hard to get there. And i will get there with Arthur, Jet, Serene and Pin.

I'm very lazy....i'm so lazy that i wanna work my a** off for at least the next 2 years to get there and enjoy a slackers life for the rest of my life. Jia you!!!

Blessed =)

Engines started.

MiOR's starting to hit countries under my network.
Managed to get some networks running towards Phillipines, and recently was referred to a exporter who got connections to India, China and Dubai! My subconscious is working!!!

Recently just had an event to promote the MiOR bars. Incredible...
Got a contact to Thailand, an official from Ministry of Thailand and he got many samples bar to pass to his fellow friends who owns clinics and skin health companies in Thailand!!

Gonna export these MiOR bars, these GOLD bars all over the World!!! Recently an American, who controls 90% of the Internet usage in USA, having connections to President Bush, got so impressed with the results of MiOR, that he's planning to get 6 superstars to do an infomerical across the whole of America!!! And what's it gonna do with me? Either i work hard now, OR i work EVEN harder, cos i'm one of the pioneers!! Darn right thing i quit Citibank at the right time!!! Franchise Trading ROckSSs!!~ I'm blessed with a good life with good people mentoring, coaching me like Ee Pin (Gwen), Jet and Serene, and Arthur Yap. Love them all... =)

Tiring, but all worthwhile..just 1-2 years of solid hardwork i wanna put in, and i'll wanna retire financially. Go ard the World to do Charity, Third World nations especially and live a life of abundance. Visit places i've never been, travel ard and find a life partner whose got a vision similar to mine. Really hope one will appear this year...finding myself old now..haha~~ 24 now!!! Found someone rather interesting, scary and special recently all at the same time... yup, anyway, i've got a new belief recently:

"What's mine, will be mine. Destined to be mine. What's not mine, will fade and go away, and i will not feel pain or sadness when it goes."

100th posting! A Brand New Life!!!

This is the 100th posting for my blog!!!

hmm...And also my first day as a fulltime Franchise Trader! Gonna meet lotsa pple later, do up biz proposal for a company in India interested in importing our pdts and they'll send down their pple for samplings and discussions! A good first step into Fulltime biz.

Jet gave me a great birthday gift.
"CHANGE" is the word...shan't explain too much, cos its too profound...

i din like to be a leader, because of what happened during my sec sch days..where pple hated me for being too commanding, choleric and demanding, when all i wanted is for the better good of the group. I pretended to be ignorant, naive, a sheep, blur silly girl ever since,... And i realised that i am not happy at all doing that. All this while, i'm not happy pretending.

I decide to make a change. To change people, i have to change myself. I feel happier this way. Afterall, what's my job scope about? Its all about changing people! Aid them towards what they want in life, And that's it! Remove all mental obstacles in my mind, no matter hard it is, how impossible it is, i must work towards it. I'm beginning to realise what Pin's and Jet's been trying to do all these while....the perseverance to never give up on pple, really impresses me...

Make a Change. Act, Dress, Talk, Think like a Presidential!

16 March 1984 - 2008

Yeah!! Happy Birthday to me!! =) Now 24 years old!!!
God pls bless me with a great guy....
as usual. ahhaaAHA~~*
ANyway, i'm delighted that i got one of my biggest cheque in WBG franchise trading system, just 4 months into the biz. Stress level has been all time HIGH as well, but this round was a SHIOK one... hoping for more to come, which stretch my mind to climb higher and higher. The income just goes up and never falls below. I nearly hit bottom, but good thing that God bless me with a great leader, Pin. i will make you proud dear! *i know you look at my blogs!* =P
Going into Full time franchise trading, i realised that there's so much to be done. I see Arthur, i see Jet, i see myself. We are all doing the same biz, isn't it? But what the difference between you, me and him?

Ask me why...ask me why.....
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GOOD QUESTION!

Its all about How we see the business,
How we build the business,
and How much we BELIEVE in the business. AS simple as that.

Ambassardor level this coming March running. And go for Disneyland HK!!!
And....... last but not least....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! a gift from my beloved colleagues, Lihui, Joyce and Lynn from CitiBank N.A (millenia towers)

Thank GOD...

Today i woke up feeling shitty....

Wanted to go jogging and meet new friends, jogging mates in the weekends, but i failed.. woke up abt 10plus... damn..
Didn't get to meet Serene as she needs to chiong her work for Andrew...damn....
Didn't manage to get Jet to meet up with Wati....sian..

But, i decided to make a change! I decided to send an sms to GOD.
I shan't say what i asked of GOD. but, He seemed to have responded!

I went to office and met Wati myself. She told me how fantastic she felt after consuming Indinine for a period of time, her tennis-ball sized cyst in her womb shrinked!!!! Last time she used to feel "balls" rolling inside her whenever she rolls in her bed when she sleeps, now she dun feel it anymore!! She feels lighter, as if her cyst disappeared!! And just a few hours ago, she msged me to tell me HOw the mior bar helped her eczema legs which never healed for years!!! JUST 3 WASHES and its healing!!! FAST, SIMPLE AND EFFECTIVE!!! i feel i can take over the World with mior!!!!

Here's her msg:" OMG, d bar works on my eczema leg. Amazing Annie I suffered for years! show you my leg on monday. Oh God thank you WBG!"

I felt so touched and blessed.. Thank GOD for helping Wati. The doctor wanted to remove her womb, because the cyst was too big and causing very bad ladies problems for her... Now, her dad who is having neck cancer, is also taking Indinine. I sincerely pray to God that Indinine helps faster for her dad as well...

I met up with a couple who are interested to know Arthur and the Franchise Trading biz as well. They got the tickets now to the biz function this coming tues @ Singapore Power Building. Hope thr exporting the pdts, it will help their financial health. =)

Also met a guy from PJC today! Its been at least 4 years since the last i saw him. Not even close to him, but i just met him off the streets @ Adelphi area! Pin wanted to go IT fair to buy thumb drive, and he wanted to get a laptop, so we went together. Along the way, we chatted heartily, like close friends! It was quite a meet up. Had fun chatting while we walked all the way from funan, fight the crowd in citylink, the bridge across to suntec and up to the IT fair at conventional hall. As we chatted and get to more about him, we realised that he's an amazing guy, Quite choleric (good leadership skills to start off!), and he really enjoys helping youngsters! Too early to tell, but we were thinking, if he can helps us with growing the youth team, he'll be a great partner. =)

Went dinner @ cafe cartel and dessert @ Spinelli at Raffles City, realised that actually he's a quite rich guy, but no airs.. and sort of...i think he's feeling empty inside. Pin also feels that too. Wow, perhaps the biz's gonna really help him and find meaning in life! ;) Whah.....somemore ah..although he's kinda failed my height criteria (i set it at least 1.75m), he's very handsome!! hahahaAAH~ i'm dreaming i'm dreaming... :P He's a good brother to have. :)

Going rock climbing with him later! See whether there are chances to explore partnership. A great guy as a brother ;) Really thank God for blessing me... :)

Arthur! MORE STRESS pls!!

Wow!!!

Its been a long time since i've suffered from so much pressure!!! WORST than SPS!!

A Long run for the 2 months running of mior bars...and i don't think i've worked hard enough.

Yes i didn't work hard enough, although i may seemed to have done alot of hits and runs, bang here and there and achieving not much results. Sad, but alot of experience gained. Hope that helps in the long run. Man!!!! I'm itching for more!!! MORE STRESS!! PEAK!! CLIMAX!!! (that doesn't sound right, whatever..haha!~*)

Yesterday session from Arthur was really great. Never before i experienced this kind of stress, not even exams!! Its a Wonderful stress...stretch our minds to think BIG!!! Never this stress which i ever felt in my whole life in WBG...never did we experience such kind of stress from any leaders from the team.. NEVER! We are really growing this time...

I never liked stress, but THIS stress i have been experiencing every single day from jan til now, i tried ALL kinds of ways to handle it. Run away, turn to korea dramas, watch movies, go out with old friends, goggle at handsome guys, pretend to do work but very less....ALL kinds of ways to run away!!! But IN THE END, i still have to face the music Because i desire the results that Arthur has been producing @ the weekly business functions. His review with us at every end of the session is amazing. Never fails to perk us up. More stress!! MORE STRESS!!!

Reach out to more people, daily. That's what i'm gonna make it as a habit. STRESS me more Arthur!!! Gimme more STRESS!!!!

Moments of my life early march

I think i'm falling for this collegeaue of mine... for the last 16days in Citibank...how can i have missed noticing him for the past 7 months at work?

It seems sweet, seeing him daily now...
But, yah....still other stuffs to do, like, preparing for full time Franchise trading! Gonna get chased by Jet for timetable! hahaAH~~*

Recently went to church service. 1st time ever. Got the shock of my life. I think i will prefer the quiet Catholic style..guess i'm getting old to enjoy the hype and all the sing songs of churches... The one thing that impacted me was "Faith". Faith is, to Attack. not to abuse, torture those kinda bad stuffs. But to stand true to what i believe and have a firm hold. When people try to sway me, stand firm on my faith and defend it. Actually i dun like that word, attack, but it what i needed most. I didn't stand true to my faith when i get attacked. I shall fight back and attack...what am i saying here... haha dun try to understand now cos its getting late...my mind is just saying.."stand firm and be in control, hold on to faith".

I have respect for all religions, just that my most fundamental of beliefs is, There is only 1 God, and his name is God. He takes on the form of any religion's worshipped character, may it be Allah, Jesus, Buhhda, Mother Mary, any good spiritual beings...There's only one. And he'll bless kind people. Fullstop. Very simple. My mind's not complicated, and i don't intend to complicate my mind with all history of religions. Live in the present, learn from the past (don't dwell in the past). Anyway, life's busy, with weekly functions which is stressing me up every week, i just feel like...finding a soulmate. I wonder how the last 16 days will work out... God, my friend, do Bless me. I Love you. =)

Public Declaration

I will declare myself Full time Franchise Trader by 31 March 2008.

I have been thinking too long these past few days....
and Today's Arthur's session made me the POWER to make this decision.

I will take the MOOR Indinine Spa bar to all corners of Singapore...
I will infiltrate schools, polys, universities, ITEs, households, condominiums, HDB flats, private estates, beauty salons, ALL OVER SINGAPORE and other countries to be exported, with this BAR...

A HUGE RISK to take...and i will make it.

Idealistic vs. Down to Earth

I wanted an ideal man to ....

1. Be in WBG biz with me
2. Be Tall (At least 1.75m)
3. Have vision about the future, like going around the World, third world nations to do charity works.
4. Really enjoy my dearest friend's company. To be with my group of close friends (That is why i always fall for guys in my close clique of friends)
5. To have lots of drive and passion for his career.
6. Be filial. Best if he really loves his mum and dad, and communicates with them well.
7. Be a leader. Be it in biz or any career. (Still preferably WBG trading biz)
8. No bad habits, like smoking, drinking, clubbing.
9. Be a vegetarian, like me.
10. Be clear of his goals and directions in life. Very specific, so he can guide me as well.

Now, what i want in a down-to-earth guy to...

1. Have passion for life.
2. Be there to adore and care for me. Be there whenever i need him. Really love me for who i am.
3. Friendly guy to know, so my close friend can generally accept.
4. Willing to change for the better. Not stubborn. Good EQ.
5. Be investment savvy. Knows how to manage finance.
6. A determined guy. Once he sets to start something, he will not give up and pursues to the end.
7. Healthy guy without much bad habits.( I can tolerate drinking, but not smoking and clubbing.)
8. Loves to hear me talk, appreciates whatever i do for him.
9. Understands his priorities in life, values and beliefs.
10. Have faith and hope for life.

These are generally the list... it will get longer.. ;) Will update this posting again.

I'm grateful to be.........ME

I am grateful to visit a great friend, love consultant, Beth @ her place, The Dating Loft.

Finally, someone is able to tell me what i have been suffering from the past 8 years.

I am a typical pisces, a perfectionist, who dreamt about the perfect prince charming, my knight in shinning armour. I dreamt of having my first guy as my lifetime partner. That was when i was still 16 years old. I really believed i could.

I made a wrong decision back then, to be with a man who doesn't know how to love, and made himself a miserable man desperate for love. I fell into the loveless trap and my dreams shattered.

An impactful sentence Beth told me, "I've never seen you happy all the times in WBG.. why?"

I know, i remember when was the last time i am happy. I was the happiest in B.T Band, in sec sch days. It was before my first relationship back in secondary 4. It was heart-breaking. Deep down, i knew i never got really happy after that.

I never forgived myself for my wrong decision. I was never truly happy since then. A choice to never forgive myself for my wrong move. I knew i was gonna suffer but i followed that wrong path. Even more undeserving of forgiveness. That was what i reaffirmed myself back then.

Today, i decide that i want to forgive myself and be truly happy again, like old times. Old people like Kumar, daniel, jason, they all missed the smily annie (haha, dun laugh ah, u guys!) . I am always better able to laugh and smile when i'm with them.

Beth gave me 3 homework.
1) To spend time with myself, and forgive myself for my wrong decision 8 years ago.
2) To list out what i used to like in an idealistic guy, compare with a list i have to also make, about having a down-to-earth guy instead. (Because i have to stop living in a perfect world and come back down to earth)
3) To really treat myself to something good. That i have always wanted and i have deprived myself of.

I did the 3rd first. Met up with Daniel and Kumar...really loved being with them. Makes me so relaxed and at ease. Kumar told me tat his mum's feeling much better taking Indinine while having chemotherapy. I feel so relieved and blessed. =)

My next blog will be on my list of comparison between having a ideal guy, vs. a down-to-earth guy. ;) (paused on franchise trading for a while!)

Hmm....what a day..

Hmm... waking up at 11am sucks. Suddenly i feel sad waking up so late these past few days of new year celebration..

First, went to Sinji's place to for new year lunch. Only see xiaoyin and huiting. haiZ i was kinda expecting a crowd of old sch mates, but its alright. ;)

Second, went shopping with Cyn for our mentor Longsheng's bday present. Tmr gonna give him! ;) But ...it didn't feel good to shop for the whole day afterall.... tired and sleepy, and alot of my franchise trading stuffs to do, haven't finish!!!

Third, went to watch Jay Chou's Kung Fu Dunk! Its an awesome movie. ;) Very funny too!!

Fourth, is what i regret most. Going to St james power station with KL, Cyn, pin, weijie, mingjian, tammy and some of KL and Cyn's taiwan friends who really wanna party. Damn, going to the clubs everytime reaffirmed that it's not the place for me to be in, BUT i still went...arGHhhHH!~!~!Not gonna step into it anymore for the next 1 year at least, until i forget the unpleasant experience of waiting for pple, getting squashed in the clubs, and drunk pple making a fool out of themselves...

Anyway, i left with pin halfway to catch another movie at cineleisure, CJ7. That's mad of us to wanna do that, but.....can u imagine? After you start to work, there's NO TIME to watch movies! Especially with our franchise trading biz, where got time?

A not so delightful day afterall, but, we're gonna celebrate Longsheng's birthday tmr anyway! So hope for the best! Sunday ends and Monday blues is coming....office hrs again... haizZZz... gonna quit soon!! Full time Trading and Franchise!!! =D

Faith kept me alive and going....

I seriously dunno what made me strong after these few days of mental torture... i supposed its FAITH.

Today we have a very fortunate session, to be invited to Nicholas Chia's place again, this time to bai nian. =) We sat ard at his european style living room and chat, and we started talking about Faith. He once told us there are 3 things man can't live without (The other 2 is left for you to think.. ) THe 3rd is, Faith. Without faith and hope, people live a hopeless life.

I guess this was what made me go Nicholas Chia's place. This is what i needed.
I've been thrown into a situation, which if i am the annie 4 years back, i would have cried on the spot and run away back home. I thank god for WBG, for making me a stronger person than ever before.

Within a short span of 4 days, i'm made to digest what i called "huge chunks of MEAT" (i am a vegetarian). I am now like, a vegetarian , trying to accept the fact the vege is not ard in my world anymore, and force to BITE MEAT, EAT MEAT, TASTE MEAT, every single day!!! And the portion gets bigger.. TOday is the biggest...

I met the lady for the first time today. I was in shock, but i kept my cool. She was suddenly brought down by him for KTV session. I couldn't bring myself to really talk to her, although i did. Just 4 days i smacked right into my face that she's there, quite pleasant looking, motherly feel...

I've got my faith to hold on to, Music is a good faith that i wanna pick it back up. I used to survive on music(band practices) during JC times, else i couldn't have made it.
For the past 6 hours just now, if not because of my strong hope to things will eventually turn out well.. else i would have broken down..
i really feel strong now...

I really feel good for him, just sad for myself for being pathetic.
I need to carry my faith with me and move through this tough lonely times.
I need to carry out my mission in life, so that my faith falls in place and gets maximised.
I need to move on to find the right guy of my life...

And i really loved him.

Personality Plus!

A great book recommended by Arthur Yap!

Understanding your personality, since its one of the few books that Arthur HIGHLY recommended, i started to read a little about it.. getting the book soon!!! ;)

I got a chance to do the test from pin's book, and realised that i'm quite a weird person.

There are only 4 personality types : Sanguine, Choleric, Melancholy and Phlegmatic.

Sanguine: Oh how the world needs the Fun Sanguine. The lift of joy in troubled times. The touch of innocence in a jaded era. The gift of humor when we're heavy hearted. The enthusiasm and energy to start over and over again. The creativity and charm to color a drab day. The simplicity of a child in complex situations.

Choleric: The firm control when others ar losing theirs. The cut of decision for foggy minds. The grip of leadership to head us to the good. The willingness to take a chance in a doubtful situation. The confidence to hold true in the face of ridicule. The independence to stand alone and be counted. The road map to life when we've gone astray. The urge to "take arms against a sea of troubles by opposing them."

Melancholy: The depth to see into the heart and soul of life. The artistic nature to appreciate the beauty of the world. The talent to create a masterpiece where nothing existed before. The ability to analyze and arrive at the proper solution. The eye for detail while others do shoddy work. The aim to finish what you start. The pledge "if it is worth doing, it's worth doing right." The desire to "do all things decently and in order."

Phlegmatic: The stability to stay straight on the course. The patience to put up with provokers. The ability to listen, while others have their say. The gift of mediation, uniting opposing forces. The purpose of peace at almost any price. The compassion to comfort those hurting. The will to live in such a way that even your enemies can't find anything bad to say about you.

i did a short online version at http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=9136838767038250566

The book version is more complete, of course. Get that book! ;) OR borrow from the lib!

I am a Melancholly

28% Sanguine, 50% Melancholy, 21% Choleric, 35% Phlegmatic

With the offline book version,

I am a Sanguine,

13 Sanguine, 5 Choleric, 12 Melancholy, 10 Phlegmatic (over 40 questions)

I have Melancholly strengths and Sanguine weaknesses.

i did the book version twice, online version twice as well.

Each time is almost the same. And according to the quiz, Sanguines and Melanchollies are complete opposites!!! No wonder i always find problems trying to figure out whether i'm extrovert or introvert, displaying different personalities with different groups of people...

It is almost IMPOSSIBLE to have such types...!!! That means, i'm rare. ;)

So this year 2008, i decided to really strengthen my melancholly strengths and reduce my sanguine weaknesses.

Pin's a true blue Sangunie-Choleric (she scored 16 S, 23 C, 1 M and 0 P!!!!), and with my Melancholly-Phlegmatic side, will complement each other in our Franchise Trading biz! ;) Arthur (S-C) and Mei Yap (M-P) are like this too! Too bad pin's a gal...hahaAHA~~* A fury lady with alot of drive in fact. hahAAHa~~*

I'm tough ;)

I think i'm really tough. On the outside i may look weak, but the inside, i am tough.

I got over it quite fast...still feeling empty inside, but feeling empty is also a feeling. But i still do love him no matter how he didn't think much of me.. i just wish him to be happy...so What's next after feeling empty? Actually...i dunno what's this feeling...not so empty as i anticipated...starting to feel, not so empty..something's filling up very slowly...i just dunno what's coming in...think its a sense of peace..with mixtures of anger still left in it.. hahaha~

What i am dreaming every now and then now, is of this perfect wedding, that i am led into the hall and there's this blinding white light... A man holds out his hands towards me, held my hand, and together, we walked down to greet the audience whom have came to our evening wedding dinner. A short moment, but its repeating in my mind all day and night now...
I am comtemplating of drawing out this image in my mind...This man.. i can't see his looks now..
How does he look like?

And also, a vision into the future where i see myself with another person, traveling all over the World to do Charity work. We do have a beautiful mansion, but we do live in huts for a few days, weeks, or months in Third World, play with children, build schools, do teachings...must have more to do..

I wanna learn music too, pick up my saxophone and clarinet back and get back in touch with my soul... That's how i lived so happily back in secondary days... Music, a language which transends all religion, race and culture... i'm looking forward to such a retirement plan...
A passion for life and
A vision with no end, and
A legacy to pass down the generations...

Coming Lunar New Year 2008

This is a good start to a Lunar new year... the end of a one-sided relationship, the start on a whole new level... i used to like this guy very much.. for 3 whole years i've been longing for his love. But, its unrequited love. I felt alot sadder than that time i confessed for the 3rd time and getting rejected again ( That's pure Courage).

I was still quite sad, this kind of sadness happened abt 4 years ago, which seems so familiar. This sort of "pity myself, live in bitter sorrow.." kind of thing.. and thinking about it, i know that i have to change. I cannot go back to the past and get sad and sadder like last time. This time, i didn't let saddness overcome me.

I went back home, and took out my POV cards. WoW!! All my few thousand of dollars into PoV courses didn't go to waste!!! Did a 3 card reading and here's what i got...

Holding on, Communication, Responsiveness

The first card: Holding on
I have been holding on to him for how long? 3 years only and it seems like eternality. Just short 3 years, but i can remember so much things about everything.. This is also the very first card i got when i first played the PoV card. Yes, i am using him to hold myself back from reality, from facing the fact that i have low self esteem, low confidence about myself, etc.

It is my attempt to live in the past. I want to live like this, secretly loving someone and not getting him as my partner, because i fear moving forward. There is a fundamental distrust in the process of life because of what has occurred, but if we don't let go we will lose our attractiveness, become dependent and move towards death instead of life.

If i choose to let go and move on, the other person may come back at a new level( a better friend whom i can really talk heart to heart to, which i never really did with him), or someone else may appear who represents the next stage in our lives. Letting go is the fastest ways to grow. We simply stop holding on to whatever attachment or fantasy we had; in this way we open ourselves to life and moce on, so that life can begin to unfold again.

Now, i wanna let go, and enjoy a much healthier and happier relationship, and i choose to do it this way. (Maybe its better for him to go with another gal now, because we're stuck at no where also lah..)

The second card: Communication
I really loved him as a friend. He's most of the time, there when i need him.
Communication can be used effectively to end separation and re-establish bonding where it has been lost.

If we commit to becoming experts in Communication, it can help in all our relationships. Good communication can end both power struggles and 'deadness' in relationships, helping us to connect with our friends, family, co-workers and partners.

Let go of the judgement and blame that sabotages your Communication (well, i used to really have bad judgement on myself, like i cant communicate to this guy i liked...)and your ability to express yourself. Your Communication skills can help you progress and change, no matter how others respond to you.

Receiving this card signals that some significant sharing is about to take place. This can lead you close to another person and can help you to move forward from your current position.
i hope that we can become better friends =)

The third card: Responsiveness
A gift that brings success.
By attending directly to another person, and to their needs or wants, we also open ourselves to Responsiveness from others.

This cards speaks of love and attention fiven with pleasure.... Responsiveness, in summary, is a generous, tender act, warmly given and you are about to experience this through giving or receiving or both.
(I seriously dun really know how to interpret this...i guess as time comes, i'll know what's it.. )

I wanna retire financially like Arthur Yap, within 4 years with a self-run organisation, go and do what i envisage to do. Charity works starting with South-east asia, Asia and the Third World nations...

My Lunar New Year 2008 resolution:
To wear more skirts!! Change my wardrobe!! 80% more time wearing skirts!!!
(Actually i'm just plain sick of wearing pants..i wanna be more feminie. That's all) ;)