28 Feb 2010!~*

It's the end of Feb!

Happy Birthday Mingjian! No 29th Feb, but it's alright. ;)

Well, updates during feb... hmm...No much.

School

Just alot of band practises (Tues, Thurs, Fri and Sat), and i still get to see him around almost all band practise. I'm not longing to see Ant anymore, just a very plain feeling. I hope to see him every band practise, but if he's not there, i'm ok with it... Maybe i'm just so used to it already..Maybe when competition ends and i'm REALLy not gonna see him for 2 years, i'll start to miss him again...whatever...

Recently, during CNY period, the band had an alumni and exco steamboat dinner gathering, and shimin, the band instructor aka my long time band mate, suggested going to Anthony's place for the steamboat instead. I thought for 2 weeks whether i should go for it. In the end, guess what? I went! So strange and sereal going back to my favourite home to be in...after 1.5 years.

Anthony's mum still remembers me, and mentioned that she misses me. .She gave me quite a big ang bao that day too...i know she loves me to be her son's gf or even to be her future daughter-in-law, but....that's not gonna happen, at least not for now...

I'm beginning to appreciate working in school as well! REcently i had a gathering with LS, MJ, Cynthia, KL and Pin. As they kept talking about work, i realised how FORTUNATE that i'm not really working for anyone. I don't have nasty bosses. No daily reports (just alot of meetings), alot of "Me as the boss" kinda situation, especially during classes. I felt like the boss, and everyday, i'm doing what i like! To inspire students, to share and not just to teach. Everyday is a fruitful day, except that i get depressed whenever i think about my love life... oh man...where's that miracle i'm praying for..but...anyway...Christ, amen.

Church

Getting baptised soon! Just went through election, where the Rite of Election was held last sunday @ St Anthony's church. Over 400 catechumens and candidates from the central and east zone were elected on saturday, 20 feb @ Divine Mercy church, and over 800 from West, North and Serangoon zone were elected on sunday, 21 feb @ St Anthony's church! :) Mass held by our Grace, Archbishop Nicholas Chia.

Alot of activities coming up for the month of March...will be very drained, but i pray for God's strength to fill me up, so that i can continue to do thy work that He wishes me to do...

Feelings about getting baptised: abit scared, not sure what's gonna happen during this season of Lent until Easter. Have been feeling extremely tired over these past few weeks..not sure why, just very very tired when i get home. Mahjong seems so tiring nowadays too..i just wanna sleep under my self-made altar, switch on my bedside lamp, and try to pray and communicate with our Father.

I pray hard for the miracle that i've always wanted, and also....I pray for the Lord, our Father in Heaven, Jesus Christ and our Holy Spirit, to guide the band and lead us to achieve our first Gold Medal for West Spring...

God's will be done.

Amen.

31st Jan 2010~*

It's been a fruitful 1st month of 2010!!

I think i might just start to write a monthly blog instead...because i really have no time to blog..i wanna spend more time with God..and my love ones..

What did i do for the past 1 month?
- Started teaching again! Lesser teaching workload, but more CCA load! Band Competition is up! And i've to be in school every saturday until 10 April! I volunteered actually, because i wanna be there for the band members and to oversee that everything needed is provided to ensure the best is provided by the school. In addition, Ant and I are coaching the color guards together (although we seldom interact, but i enjoy that silent moments sometimes..)

Every saturday after each band practise, we will all go out with some of the band members and alumni team for dinner and bonding session. The alumni were of great help. God bless. I pray for West Spring a Gold Medal for this year's Band Competition. ;)

Just went to a KTV session with the band alumni last night...its was great..God bless..
Ant sang a few songs with me. Although we were seated far apart, i still felt blissed. Almost everyday, prayers will be send for him... i wish everything well for him. And God please forgive him for he know not what he has been doing sometimes.... the iPhone app, PrayerJournal, is so great..i think i can literally send prayers up to heaven through it. hahaaH~* I hope i can download all my prayers and save it somewhere so it will be kept somewhere forever... All my prayers for him...

- With Mitch, Neil, Jessica and Kian's group: I started playing Left4Dead! That's a great game! So fun! It reminded me of the days when all of us, mitch neil ant kumar daniel jason and many more...we played CS almost everyday everywhere, at LAN shops, at daniels place..Those were the days.

Recently, we just went to a place at taman jurong for fishing. It costs $30, from 7pm-7am. We all caught nothing, because the fishes are so smart! (i think we are just not professional enough to get bigger catches..hahaaAHA~*) We even had a BBQ outside Jeremy's HDB flat!!! hahaAH~ It was a quick 2 hour session. It was quite fun. We even had a basketball session before the BBQ! Now we're thinking of having badminton sessions every weekend, because age is catching up. We really need some form of exercise to keep fit and stay healthy...

Speaking of exercise, i need to constantly remind myself to gym at Amore! I wasted so much money and never go!!!! Oh man!~!!!!!
Wanna get started on Belly dancing! ahahaHA~* and do some CardioLatino.. to burn some fats off my bum!

- Church: Getting baptised on 4 April! Now undergoing preparations...so tiring...
And iPhone apps with Bible and Liturgical readings are really helping me to keep me closer to God... been reading a children's version of bible stories. VEry interesting!

Been praying for a sign too...and God just directed me to read up "the Beatitudes".
Gonna go read now!

Ok! Till next month!

Love,
Annie Clare Lee ;)

31st Dec 2009!!~

The first post for Dec'09, the Last post for Year 2009!

I've been so lazy to update, and there's suddenly so much to say!! hahaAh~*
I think its mainly because of the School Band trip to Kedah, Malaysia, which revitalised me ALOT! I feel so alive in Band, once again, and it didn't matter if it just WestSpring Band and not my Bukit Panjang Govt High/ Teck Whye combine band.. These bunch of West Spring kids are seriously awesome.. :)

What i've done for December 09 (All photos can be found on Facebook!)
-Went Malacca trip with Mitch, Neil, Kian and Jessica. Fishing on a speed boat was awesome!!! ;)
-Went Malacca, Kuala Lumpur, Ipoh, Penang with Cynthia and friends. Malacca and KL were awesome, but not so for Ipoh and Penang.. It was a back-breaking, tiring experience..
- Went Kuala Lumpur, Kedah.. It was an amazing time! spent with the kids, spend my time learning how to twirl flags (professional color guards training), and my coach is just 20 years old! The only Color Guards instructor throughout the whole of Malaysia!
- And i've finally got my long awaited iPhone!! It doesn't matter that the whole world is using it, what matters most is that it is SO AWESOME!!!!Anywhere and everywhere i go, i can go online! And loading time is SO FAST! woohoo! I love the PrayerJournal app most, because i can do my prayers so conveniently! SHIOK!!!

What i'll be focusing on Next year:
- Band!! It's where life is for me!
Although there is only little i can do, i hope whatever important knowledge i've taught the kids, will be able to impact them positively in life. There is so much satisfaction just by being with the band kids and nurturing them.

- Looking forward to NIE (in July). Hope there is vacancy for me! (IF not, i'll definitely write complain letter!)

- Looking forward to lots of holiday trips! Thailand with Cyn, Korea with Lili, Joyce and Qiqi, and finally, the ultimate Band trip to Australia (if we win GOLD medal!!!!) =D

- Getting baptised next year (4th April 2010), so i forsee that tough times will be ahead, especially during Lent season. I pray that the Lord our Heavenly Father will always look after me. No matter what happens, may i never lose my God. With the little faith i have, i pray that the Lord will strengthen me more.

- I pray to be reconciled with Anthony, that we may be able to work better together should he be back to help out with the band, and also that we may be able to communicate normally as friends again. I ask this, to Jesus Christ most precious name, Amen.

Within the next few hours before and after Countdown to 2010:
- Now, doing designing of posters for the ALpha group in my church.
- Doing recruitement drive marketing tools for West Spring Band.
- Will be at Singapore Polytechnic for the "Mafia Night" countdown to 2010.
- Will have a "Super Drunk" Party night at Mirama hotel until 2pm next day. (i'll be the chamber maid aka cleaner for the night. Don't feel like getting a hangover the next day)

So tata!! Looking postivitely for GReat TIMES ahead NEXT YEAR 2010!!! ;D

A fresh start!

Wow...its been 1 month since the last posting...
Anyway, school term is over...so i was kinda, back into the depression mode..without Anthony around by my side. Actually, i guessed that i was almost too reliant on him. That's quite a pull-off, to always stick to him when i was still together with him....thinking back, i seriously think i behaved too much of a "sticky" wife to him. I bore him at times as well. Because we are BOTH boring people..So naturally, he and i can't handle it...haizZZz..

I'm still missing him, thinking about him, and sometimes, in my dreams i see him too.. (i feel like an emo psycho..) The things that we've done together, it felt so much like just a few days or weeks ago. Very vivid. STILL very clear in my mind..

Anyway, i have to move on. Thinking clearer now (yah....took quite a long time for me to think it through yah...but its not too late..) So, what i wanna be in 5-10 years time, i'll have to decide now! Just like what i've always been telling my students.. :)

Get real!

I wanted to get married by the age of 28...but now, it doesn't seem realistic at all. The whole idea of a happy marriage before 30 seems impossible now, and i do not look forward to it anymore as well. The whole new plan (a new door) is unveiling itself now, so i might just go for this new perspective...

I plan to give myself 8-1o years more of singlehood, before i plunge into marriage. That means, marriage by 33 - 35.

Maybe a boyfriend in 5 years time. That's the most possible timeline i can work out. I'm feeling so....uninterested in men now. The thought of entertaining a possibly new relationship seems so unappealing...I just want to be with God now.

For now, what i can do is to work on Career and Religious Life!!
Certain aspects of life i wanna fulfill are:
- Getting a driving license! Before 15 April 09 (i just passed BTT! Now getting my FTT done too..)
- Settle my debts..by this year end and early next year!
- Do some traveling before NIE training ends next year! (Thailand, parts of Malaysia, South Korea, Taiwan are all in the plans already..)
- I will really love to be able to play piano...contemplating of buying one in the near future.
- I wanna get a car by 3 years time. By 2012. A cheap second-hand car will do.
- I wanna change my wardrode!!! Planning $500 min. heeEHe~*
- I wanna definitely wanna get a flat on my own by age 35, if i'm still not married.

How about Career?
I intend to go into the leadership track, or the senior teaching track..
- CPA Head of Department by age 35.
i might just wanna get my ass into intensive CPA (Computer Applications) learning. With the fast evolving IT industry, i'm gonna start learning alot of animations, games making, video and movie creations, to keep up with the subjects learning pace. Alot of teachers in school just wanna teach, but don't wanna improve. So, CPA is the subject where i can improve myself and get up to HOD level. Maths is way TOO competitive.. ..
Alot of IT learning to do right now! Not stagnant at all in this field..can get entrepreneurial as well.. :)

Religious Life
Hmm..recently, it has been going dull. But i recognise it as normal. Because in a relationship, there are bound to be ups and downs. There are also times whereby i feel bored. Just like what i felt with Anthony as times as well. But the thing is, how do i revive the passion? Oh, that's effort. I have to stop being lazy and read up on the Word of God....my Bible! and also, get back into the activities of the church. I have been too busy with school work for the last 3-4months, that i neglected my spiritual life..

Nonetheless, God really took great care of me. There are many times when i grumble why must my life end up like this, and He will do something...so MAGICAL that i find it so amazing...things that happen to me.. that makes me realise that Love Changes everything. Hope does not fail...
And i will continously pray that, for the next few years that i've given myself, that miracle will happen.

Ah...!!~~Right now, i wanna stop caging myself up, get into some real serious work with career planning, and enjoy life having weekend mahjong sessions, ktv sessions, church sessions, shopping for Christmas and holidaying!!

In the name of Jesus Christ,
i pray for All my loved ones be blessed with your love and your joy, especially take care of my love Anthony as well. Now that he's having a car now, i pray for his safety on the roads and wherever he travels to.
Amen

Amused by his driving.. :)

Yesterday was an eventful day..
-Taught extra classes @ Subway, Lot 1 with some students...since 10am to 1.30pm onwards..
- Bible studies @ St Anthony Church from 2.30pm to 5pm..
- Rosary Prayer @ Carol's place, with the Catechumens, Facilitators and Godparents of RCIA....7.30pm to 9.30pm
- Mahjong session @ Jessica's place with Jessica, Kian, Jeremy, Joy and Mitch and Ant.. :) from 10.30pm all the way to 2am..

As we packed up to go home, we walked downstairs to the carpark. It was when Mitch and Ant paused in front of a black car, that i realised we were going to hitch a ride from Ant! His car is black, one of the most "lok-kok" car i've ever sat in (abit like Malaysia car which has been used more than 10 years..), and his driving skills really amuses me.. hahaaH~* The way he drives...first time driver..kinda failing badly....aahahaAH~~

Nonetheless, it felt nice.. that's he is moving fine along with life.. the car, of course, feels like he's going to use it for 2-3 years only.. He's smart. He knows what he is doing (with regards to his career). The whole car is company-paid for. FRee petrol, free carpark coupons, FREE CAR!! A temp car just for transport since he's in sales and marketing now, so he can save up abit to buy a better one when he moves up the ranks in corporate world..

Looking forward to the fishing trip in the coming weekends! 17 Oct!! Paula Ubin! Gonna go for an early trip and end at night.. :) Gonna purchase my own fishing hooks, weights... must buy my very own foldable chair as well! Awesome...can't wait for weekends to come asap!! =)

命中注定我爱你。。。

The TV serial 命中注定我爱你 just finished its showing on tv recently..and this miracle happened to me.. =) Although its a short meeting, but its truely amazing Grace from God who arranged this special day...

A week ago, Jessica (the birthday girl from the previous blog post), private messaged me on Facebook to go clubbing @ Rebel, Clark Quay. Normally, i will reject it, because i HATED clubbing...its an activity that's loud, noisy, drinks that i don't normally go for... but somehow, i agreed! And i was spontaneous and excited about trying it out! I was amazed by my own excitement about it..and have actually looked forward to going for it...! It was a strange and happy feeling...~

So, my day on Friday (2 Oct '09) was rather full. It was a school day, students having exams. I went Chinatown with a fellow colleague for a meal, walked to Clark Quay for ice cream..tired when i reach home, had to go church for a monthly gathering....BEFORE i go clubbing @ night! I should be totally exhausted (which i am), but i still decide to Want to go for it!

Before i left church, i had a quick chat with the ladies there. I was dressed quite pretty, and they thought i had a date with a guy (yes i wished...), but i revealed to them that its Girl's night out...and told them i'm still thinking about my ex-boyfriend Anthony.... They prayed over for me..and of course, i pray that he will come back to Christ..and journey together with me.. =)

So i went over Jessica's place and we left together to go Clark Quay. Met Lisa there, din managed to get into 'Rebel', and went into 'Arena' (which is another club with live band).

The moment i stepped inside, the first person i saw.....ANTHONY!!! He's the last person i expect to see! Because he doesn't like clubbing at all!! He likes pubs, but he doesn't like all the dancings! And he's with his poly classmates (all don't look happening at all lah...)

Its definitely a sign from God...

What are the odds of him appearing in places we both are not likely to appear?? I was smiling non-stop, and he seemed quite happy to see me also..and although he left early because he's tired..nonetheless i felt extremely joyful that night... until i got tipsy and went home early also..ahhaaH~

All these, makes me recall how we got back in touch.. It was the Standard Chartered Marathon 2007. I was running towards the finishing line for my first race..the 10km race...and i saw you, waving at me. It was the first meet after a very long while...a long while since my last series of hatred for you which lasted for several years... but miraclously, i couldn't feel the hate anymore.. and we talked to each other since then... Thinking back, THAT was a miracle as well... =)

Until now, i still do not know why we broke up... and i believed its his inability to commit to a true relationship. Prehaps he still want to find whether there are any better "roses" out there, before turning back to retrieve the "already quite good" rose behind him....

Hope he's not too late to turn back.. and see clearly with his heart...

命中注定我爱你。。。actually, deep in my heart, i've already regarded him as my dear husband... how am i able to ever forget him...

"Heavenly Father, hereby i asked of you, to guide Anthony back to Christ.
If it is your Holy will, please guide him back to me...
I ask this, in Jesus Christ most precious name.
Amen"

Great weekend! Hope this battery recharging lasts longer..

It was definitely a GREAT WEEKEND!!

Firstly, we had Jessica's birthday celebration @ Pasir Ris Park. We had BBQ and there were lots of good food and drinks! The "De-Silver's" style of cooking is definitely one of the best i've ever tasted! We have self-made cheese hotdogs (i made it with Aunt Cynthia), Baked cheese mussels on the grill (that's shiok!), BBQ prawns, Otah, Beef, chicken, baked corns and potatoes! Most importantly, there was Great company! Awesome! =D

And of course, Ant was there... somehow, just 3 days before this BBQ session, i had this "gut feel" that he was going to wear a red shirt. On the actual day, this feeling was even stronger. Was it because we still connect with each other? telepathy like we used to? Or its a sign from GOD? (Yes i made a proposal with God...Very thank you for your sign..) Anyway, i was indeed very happy that night.. =)

Somehow, my heart plunged to rock bottom for a few moments that night. I saw him carrying a pink tote bag. Definitely not his choice of bags to have. I was thinking, "Is it his new gf's bag?" I waited to see if the gal will appear.. i was devastated for that few secs until Mitch asked Jessica to go over to their side..." Come birthday gal! This is the gift we (Mitch, Neil and Ant) bought for you!" And so, i recovered. This incident brought me back to reality. What if i have to face this situation one day? I hope not so soon... I pray that i will never face this again...

Poster on BBQ Pit 20 lamp post!

Jeremy (Jessica's brother) is the official Chef cum Otah Man for the day!Well, guess what Neil (Our gentle giant) is doing?

He's so sweet! Pitching up a tentage for our Birthday girl!

These are shredded cheese, done by Otah man's wife, Joy!

The otahs...very nice!And there, we have our little tentage to house all of us...so sweet~ :D

Jessica and I! Gave a L'occitane cheery hand lotion as a birthday gift. ;)

I think should be quite nice, since the ingredients are mostly of natural origins.The ice cream cake is so beautiful! From Swensens! And the price is also very "beautiful"!*~Our birthday girl..~* :)

Ok..now's cake cutting time....but 5 mins have went by... Melissa's using the chilli sauce bottle as a makeshift hammer..

Now's Mitch's turn...10mins gone by... Anthony's just sitting there and watching the show all along!~~* ;P

Finally the rock solid cake started to melt..and gentle giant comes to help!

ahaAHAh~ !Let the birthday girl take the first bite.. fed by her Mum, Aunt Lorain! :)

Finally, when we're packing off...we were thinking..."who can help to remove the coil from the lamppost?" So the guys (Neil on the left, Mitch on the right, Ant on the top) get on with their fabulous team work...awesome!!

Its only 11.55pm, and we wished Jessica Happy Birthday at midnight! As we age, the BBQs, the drinking sessions gets shorter....can't tahan so long...

But of course, its REALLY very early, so we went Jessica's place to have mahjong, more food (we dialled for McDonalds) and had a few rounds of Mahjong before we went home ! :)

The Next day, which is Sunday, i went to send off my brother, Henry off to the airport. He's still immature...hope he'll learn his lesson in UK. Will sponsor his home-return tickets when he's having his termbreak..

And in the evening, i went for Mass @ St Anthony's church, saw Mitch and his brother-in-law, and we went for dinner with Neil and catch the show, Inglorious Basterds! Its a DAMN LEngthY show! Almost 3 hours long! Full of dialogues, but surprisingly, its ALL very interesting long story. The plot is real awesome as well! The director is real good. ;)

Hope this round of battery recharging lasts longer...for at least 3 weeks until end of exams!

Hope to see Ant soon again. =)

Amen.

Dull life...without him..

没有Anthony 的第375天。。。A year already.. i'm still lost.. without him...

Whenever i reach home, tired from work...fulfilling vocation in teaching, that still...never occupied my heart emptied by you... No one can fill me up like you did...

Are all circumstances against us now?... Can we ever be together again?
"第一次是偶然，第二次是必然，第三次是命中注定"...

Where is this so-called "Heaven" on earth?
As days for my pending Baptism comes nearer, journey on earth seems harder and harder...
Evil found its way to my weakness....its a tough battle...

"Jesus, you always welcomed little children when you walked on this earth. Teach me to have a childlike trust in you. To live in the knowledge that you will never abandon me."

Amen

What on Earth am i here for?

Been reading this book recently...It's small, compact..about A6 size.
Lately, i've been feeling that since i've found the right job, to teach students..education...so what's in it for me? What next? I can't see where's the end..

Its a good read! Focuses your mind, your direction, how to live life..and its only SG$2! Found it in Novena Church bookshop... =) Strongly recommend it to those who believes the existence of God..

Amen. =)

How long i wanna stay in Teaching?

After starting teaching since 28 June '09, its only 2.5 months gone!! woo!! I thought its been half a year!! hmm, time passes very very fast...and the kids are having their exams soon! Why did i think i spent a lifetime in sec sch?? 4 years seemed so long! So much memories... =)

I spoke to a fellow adjunct teacher a few days ago, and she told me how MOE retains teacher, through the CONNECT PLAN. It is separate from the annual bonuses that we usually get. I heard alot of figures, but it didn't get into my head..
So, i went online and started scanning through the benefits and renumeration of being a teacher under MOE...

AND So, i'm starting to countdown! I wanna stop teaching by 50 years old, which is 25 years from now..

CONNECT Plan Payouts
Year 1 - No payout -
Year 4 - $15,200
Year 7 - $24,000
Year 10 - $25,900
Year 15 - $36,100
Year 20 - $28,500
Year 25 - $18,500
Year 30 - $20,600

If i'm sick of teaching and wanna enjoy life, i will stop at Year 15, when the Connect Plan payout is highest at $36,100. By then, i'll be 40 years old only...and i'll convert to adjunct teaching. Easier life (with 1/2 load, 3/4 load or full teaching load to choose from), so i can enjoy both teaching and having a good life also...

Or maybe i'll convert at Year 10? If i'm fortunate enough to get married and have kids, at age 35!! ahaHah~* So,...yes..i decided to get married late...Anyway, no significant one yet also, so no hurry..I think i can spend the one-time payout in a One month Europe trip. hahaaHA~~*

HAizzZZz...

Amen.

Melissa housewarming and Aunt Cynthia's Birthday!~*

28th August 2009! Had great fun @ Lisa's place for housewarming.. ;) Arrived @ her place at 6.30pm, most of the people are not there yet..so chat with Jessica and her guy Kian..It was also Mitchell and Lisa's mum's (Aunt Cynthia) birthday party! haha~~ I really miss these gatherings..especially when they are my long long time friends... :)

We watched Michael Jackson's concert on channel 5 at 7pm...waiting for Aunt Cynthia to arrive...*hehe* Its a surprise party! I really love them all! BECAUSE they are always having surprises during events! Whether its CNY, Christmas, anyone's birthday, they are FULL OF SURPRISES!! The whole family is like this!! And their family are really affectionate people. =)

Melissa's housewarming! So She invited a Priest from St Mary of the Angels to do house blessing ...This is the Bible and Holy water used! First time i see house blessing.. =)

And Aunt Cynthia got her GIGANTIC cake for her birthday!! =)

Having wine after dinner! It was like a wine tasting session! So many wines to drink!! =)

The food was FANTASTIC as well!! I really love euasian food!!! The way they cook the beef, the mutton, the potatoes...wahHHhh...*drooling* i love their shepherd's pie the most... =)

I can't wait for the next gathering with them...its a motivating factor, always something to look forward to, to live on PASSIONATELY in life...hahaAH~~*

Neil playing with Sandy, the chiwawah jack russel mix breed.. He's pretending to bite her..ahaaAH~~*

Its 2 am... Lisa, Jessica, Joy..

Joy, (Top side) Jeremy, Kian

(Bottom) Jeffrey, Tessa-jeffrey's new gf

(Top) Anthony -yes, its him..
(Bottom) Mitchell -he's my RCIA facilitator in St Anthony's church too!!

I taught them how to play "Mafia"...Its like the game, Murder, but it has a narrator, murderers, a spy and a healer..they find it quite interesting! But tiring towards the end....and we played from 10pm to 2am in the morn! haaHAa~* Tiring..but God bless...they enjoyed it. ;) It was great fun! Especially when the guys are the ones who knows how to TALK alot..and its really enjoyable to see them having so much fun and laughter. =D

Recently, one of my churchmates, Kumar, went for a fishing competition in Malaysia...and he got 4th position!! I really miss the kelong times...yah...especially with him... Hope to go to Kelong with them again..

For now..i'm thinking of Go-kart trip in Malaysia!! And the tasty Bak Kut Teh i wanna share with them too!! Holidays coming after exams!! I'm so looking forward to meeting them again! Hope it comes soon... =D

Teachers need motivation too!

Watching "The Triumph" by Matthew Perry (One of the cast, Chandler of "FRIENDS")!

Gonna compile a list of great motivational movies for teachers! ;)

Happy Weekend!! =D

Weekends!!! =D

Looking forward to this weekend especially!!!

Just got my pay earlier than expected! First pay! and its more than what i have expected!
What i expected was just my gross pay! I didn't expect the allowance!! Quite generous of MOE.. hehe~ :)

Looking forward to the BBQ for JJAM group, my sec school gang... been missing them.. so, i'm gonna get draught beer and drink to my hearts content! *hehe* Just discovered beer can taste better than red wine, sometimes.. :P

And looking forward to WeiLin's wedding... Sorry dear, i can't be your bride's maid that day, because I CANNOT skip school lessons! Exams are coming.... so sad... but i can be there by mid day. =D

What else? Exams!! This is 7th week, next week is Common test... 3 more weeks to Sept holidays, and then 4 more weeks to exams! hehe..than mid Oct will be FREEDOM FOR ME!!! woohoo!! =D

And i wanna spend more time doing my prayers for my loved ones as well...maybe can start registering for driving lessons as well.. =) Planning to get a car within 3 years time... when my finances are good.. hehe~

I pray for more gatherings...especially with JJAM group...really miss them..especially my love...

OH well...God's will be done.

Amen.

Living faith? Living hell...

Sometimes, if not, most of the time nowadays...i think i'm living in hell...

Before getting to know about God, i was thinking that anyone who wants to die must be insane..mental.. out of their mind..

But now, after knowing that there's Life after Death, there's a Heaven waiting for us... there seems to be a good place to be.. especially when Life on Earth can be so tough...

Hm...i was thinking of writing an Eulogy, so that when i die, people will not be too sad...my parents wouldn't feel too bad if i leave them early because i wanted to go to somewhere better.

Living out the faith journey is so tough sometimes... as i pray for Anthony, the same old guy, it felt like running a never-ending marathon... when's it going to end? What's going to be the outcome? I pray for the best outcome from God...

I prayed a whole night yesterday, and prayed for God's revelation about the outcome..i had numerous dreams that, when i woke up, i couldn't remember any of it.. i guess...God's plan is still pending....further notice to be given... Yah, it should be as well, since God's handling someone whose been confused, one who has a STRONG and NEGATIVE mind, and messed up with his life all these years...

St Monica prayed for 30 years for her prodigal son, St Augustine to repent from his foolish way of life... Am i to do that as well? I pray not to... i'm not as strong as her... maximum 3 years, i think i'll be withered and expired already...

I pray that when i die, i will just die in his arms...that'll be a good farewell before i leave him to see the Father... and pray for his salvation when i'm in

heaven...be his guardian angel...

Its been a long time since the last said...

"Anthony, I Love You."

God's will be done.

Amen.

Let go and Let God

Just a year ago, 8th August '08, i was happily enjoying myself with my love...with a few close friends, at Mersing Kelong....Kelong Achech...i still remember..

I miss the good old times with him...
Let go and Let God... Lord pls take over..
If my prayer to you is working,
If i'm being faithful according to your will and not just being plain sturborn,
If my interpretations of your will is correct,
Lord...pls bring him back....

I ask this, In Jesus Christ most precious name,
Amen.